OH GOD HAS IT BEEN THAT LONG, WELL THAN

Merciful Minerva, many days have passed since I was here last. Who would have thunk that my happiness would lead me to not be on here as much?? Between the technical problems, along with the realization that I am happier now than I have ever been before would force me to be in my lover's arm when I sleep or even whem I lay down, would make me not want to be online but rather be here as it is...whp would have guessed??? Well as an update this aint much but I'll be back soon...until than....this is life. it's what you get, it's not what you want it's just what you get....

WOW IS THE TIME FLYING BY THAT FAST

Again sore from work. This is starting to become a habit. Will be getting back to that in the near future. But that's not why I'm happy. You want to know something? It's only 8 more months until the 4th of July and we can celebrate freedom by "Blowing shit up while drinking". Oh yeah can you believe it? I know I can't. TV finally belongs to the mindless masses again. There's no election crap on the TV. There's no vote for me jiberish on the radio. I won't be woken in the AM's by some recording telling me to vote. Finally. Peace and quiet. Well I got a few more notes, but I'm getting tired of sitting here so I'll be seeing you all later.

I REALLY SHOULD LEARN TO DO THIS EVERYDAY, INSTEAD OF WRITING IT DOWN THAN TYPING IT OVER AGAIN

Today nothing new to report only because I was too sore from work to right down my notes for my blog entry for the day so instead, I will sit here and complain about one thing. My cartoon watching has hit a new a low. I'm averaging about 22.5 minutes of cartoon watching. Which does bring me way below the "Average Jose Time Wasting Away in Front of Animation" levels. Well I'll be trying to rectify that real soon, or at least when I'm allowed to...heh heh.

EEEGADS I'M PART OF THE MANUAL WORK FORCE AGAIN

It's true my friends, countryman and cohorts. I'm actually a "hard" working man again. I'll have to let you all know how that goes. But today's little blog is a "memory moment." It goes back a whole 3 days, I know how does the time fly by so fast like a man backpedaling as to why he forgot your anniversary, to go out drinking with the boys. Well on 10-31-04 also commonly known as Halloween and more specifically, Trick or Treat day. Yeah baby, free candy, dressing up, scaring people and running amok, a day truly designed for adults...oh wait, that wasn't me this year. Instead, I went Tricking and Treating with clanWG. It was a night of watching the kids beg for candy and 4 adults walking behind the "Incredible Hulk" with blinking shoes...heh heh. I think we looked more like a mob enforced shaking down of the sweet and sugary goodness than a family trick or treating. But it has been the most fun I've had T or T'ing since the years of changing costumes, and hitting the "good candy houses" of yesteryear. Yes it was a good night. It truly was a nice and fun night.

HAVE YOU EVER

Have you ever wondered what has brought you to the place where you are? I've been thinking about this for the last couple of weeks, and I realized that everything has brought me to this place, and I'm grateful for everything. All the good things and bad, that have happened thus far have just made me the man, or jerk depending on who you ask, that I am now. It seems to be kind of weird thanking all the people who I should be hating but without them I'd be looking at the world from the bottom of a bottle slowly counting away the days till I cease to exist, and become nothing but a smear on the tapestry of life. I have a feeling that some of them want that anyway, but I can't blame them either. I can't fault them for their feelings, nor can they fault me for mine. I think that the more they tried to kill the person I am, the more they steered me into becoming the man I'm supposed to be. So it seems that hatred for the betrayers of my life, have turned to thanks and adulation. I sit here a stronger, saner and very honestly a better man for it. But that doesn't mean I've forgiven them for the acts of betrayals, just accepted them. You can't expect the rattlesnake not to strike, just because it isn't shaking it's rattle. Just like if you piss of the dog, you can't expect the dog to forget, and question why it just bit you. So with that said, this goes to all the people who tried to make me less, because whether you wanted it or not, you made me more, and for that, thank you.

GETTING BETTER

One of the nice things about my life right now is simply the fact that no matter how grey life is,the sun seems to keep shining through the grey. Who knew that proverbial sunny day would be so nice to feel. Well I know now, how it's supposed to make you feel, and it's nice, very very nice.

DAY 3 AND JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER

Hehehehehe, I realize the more sleep one gets the day before the less sleep they need for the next day. I have been awake since roughly 2:30 AM and been out of bed since about 4:00 AM. That in and of itself is pretty foreign to me. I'm usually going to sleep at 9ish AM and waking up at 9ish PM. This is usually a restless sleep. Or in some cases a "green label" induced sleep. Which means it is neither restful nor a "good nights" sleep. So I was awake. Yay me. So Wg does this badges thing for POGO and I helped her get the "Sweet Tooth" badge thingy. But for the last couple games I had a helper on my knee. As we giggled and compared who was cooler stories (he won) WG was standing behind us. I think this little Norman Rockwell-esque situation made her happy. Yo know when you can feel someone beaming with happiness...well I felt that. I knew it was different than the usual beaming that takes place (usually with a baseball bat, my head and the terrifying shriek "Won't fill the ice cubes HUH?!?!?!?!?!" but I digress). It was a heart warming and very comforting setting this morning. Does this mean I'm getting domesticated? Does this mean that I'm setteling down? Does this mean I can keep asking questions like this to take up space on my blog? Does this mean I can finally know the answer to how many licks it takes to get to the tootsie roll center of a tootsie pop, without biting? Does anyone know how much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuckcould chuck wood?

INSERT BANJO MUSIC

Hehehehe, I realized today that the smaller the town, the nicer the Goodwill. I also realized that when your Goodwill is in the same stripmall that your Family Dollar, Grocery Store and Hallmark store are, you sure can do a lot of price comparisons, and no-one looks at you funny. Well unless you happen to be a Mexican wearing a pair cut-off scrub pants in a place where flannel and denim are as popular as breathing. I knew I was in flannel country when I was in the goodwill and a 15 foot section of shirts that were for sale were flannel. From size teeny weenie to "OH MERCIFUL MINERVA!!!" To quote Marisa Tomei from the most awesome flick "My Cousin Vinny"..."yeah, you blend." Yay me...is that dueling banjo's playing?

AND "BOX"ING IS THE NEW FAVORITE PAST TIME

There are some conversations that I really wish I wasn't a part of...especially when dealing with fuzzy boxes, dirty boxes, shared boxes, and boxes that light up when someones on them, and especially if they blink...sometimes I wonder about our future...than I realize...oh crap these are my peers. So who wants to hedge their bets on the next generation?

HOLY COW DID A MOUSE JUST FART

You know it's quiet here. It's really quiet. I never noticed how nice that was. I can here the fish tank, and the clock ticking away the seconds. I can here the cars driving on the raod a block away, and I have no desire to turn on a cd, radio or the TV. As I type away at this keyboard, each keystroke almost sounds like thunder, because it happens to be the loudest thing I hear. At the same time though, the silence also makes a noise all it's own. Kind of like the same way a room might be dark, but when you close your eyes the darkness is deeper and darker. I mean I can hear the chair I'm sitting on creak when I lean back on it, I can hear the wind as it blows. I can hear the people laugh as they walk past the house on the sidewalk below. But, for me that is, the most refreshing thing is simply that I'm not thinking right now. My brain is actually quite peaceful. That silence, is actually the nicest feeling. For once I am at peace with myself. No inner turmoil. No self doubts. No insecurities. Nothing at all, ezcept the patient waiting for WG to get home. Oh sure it won't be quiet anymore, but it's a nice sound to have, after a day of silence. So you want to know something? Today is turning out to be a perfect day.

ROCK N ROLL A BYE BYE

I slept today. That's all I did, well except for the blog entry and the transferring of money to the ex, other than that that was all. Watched a little TV after WG came home, but all I did otherwise was sleep. It felt good. I actually feel awake for the first time in a long time. I feel invigorated, I feel great. Hell, I feel like a new man. Oh wow is it bed time already? Good I was feeling sleepy.

ON THE ROAD AGAIN

Well I'll be hitting the road for possibly the last time again. Well atleast in the fact that I won't be living in Waukesha, WI anymore...or ever again. Never wanted to move back in the first place, but that's ancient history, along with the reason. You know, you think I should be worried, but I'm not, and that's the cool part. I was talking to my mom today, and she was pretty sad about me leaving, but she was also very very happy because of where I was going. That was cool, and I know when I tell WG she'll get all smiley because she likes the fact that my mom likes her, and sides with her, even if they're both wrong, because when you put them together, they're right and of course I feel the pain later. I think my life is about to change, and all I can see are good things happening. talk to you all later.

STILL ON THE ROAD SOMEHOW

went to see WG...went to the shack with WGM, WGD, WG and WGG...out in the middle of duh boonies...relaxing-tension slipping away-eyes getting sleepy-it's not even 1030...going to sleep...

DALLAS IS BEHIND ME...sort of

dallas trip is over...going 100 mph, need a break...go to see WG...finally get to relax...leave an email for the ex...get to sleep...day over sorta

DALLAS TRIP...day 3 sorta

wake up early...still feeling good...drivng home...the drive felt longer than it should have...God hates us...3 days of driving in rain...eww...trying to stop at a Waffle House for dinner, couldn't find one, stopped at Wendy's, got back on expressway...there's a damn waffle house...God does not like us at all...missed our turn, it's ok we've been here before...got off expressway in springfeild IL, took 30 mins to get back on expressway...missed our turn again...god is having a good ol' belly laff on us...finally get home...unpack car...have a JD salute on surviving our drive...

DALLAS TRIP...day 2 sorta

wake up, get tour...do more driving...start drinking again...take nap...go out drinking yet again...end the night at Denny's

DALLAS TRIP...day 1

Lots of driving...lots and lots of driving. Destination arrived. Drinking and passing out begins...end of day one

RANDOM QUOTES FROM PEOPLE WHO ARE FUNNY or BEING LAZY AND CUTTING AND PASTING QUOTES FROMM THE BBC'S

Jeff : Do you know what would be the best way to wipe out all of human kind if you were a space alien with a special kind of mind ray...? Make all women telepathic. Because if they suddenly found out about the kind of stuff that goes on in our heads they would kill us all on the spot. Men are not people - we are disgustoids in human form


Howard : [trying to explain to Jane that he's gay] ] : Jane! I AM GAY! And I've always, always been gay! I was the sperm at the back shouting "No! Don't send me into that big scary cave!" I was the only sperm who had to be chased by the egg. Don't you get it? I'm gay.

Sally : I don't want Mr. Superbly, Incredibly Fantasticness, you stupid, stupid ass. I want you.
Patrick : Oh, for God's sake, Sally.
Sally : What? WHAT?
Patrick : I was talking about me!
Sally : I'm sor-You're Mr. Superbly, Incredibly Whatever?
Patrick : [gesturing to self] Well, yes!

[Susan is about to show the others one of her breasts] Susan : Well? Which one do you want? The left one or the right one?
Patrick : The right one. [to others]
Patrick : Trust me.
Susan : Why? What's wrong with the left one?
Patrick : Now, don't be like that. There has to be a second place.
Susan : Well, I wasn't aware you were judging them individually!
Patrick : You were asleep! I was bored!

Susan : Does your dick do all your thinking?
Patrick : Dunno. I'll ask it.

[Susan has removed the lock from the bathroom door, and doesn't understand why Steve is so upset about it] Susan : Men and toilets, the love that dare not speak its name. What's that about?
Steve : [slams hand down] We are men! Throughout history, we have always needed, in times of difficulty, to retreat to our caves. It so happens that in this modern age, our caves are fully plumbed. The toilet is, for us, the last bastion, the final refuge, the last few square feet of man-space left to us! Somewhere to sit, something to read, something to do, and who gives a damn about the smell? Because that, for us, is happiness. Because we are *men.* We are different. We have only one word for soap. We do not own candles. We have never seen anything of any value in a craft shop. We do not own magazines fill of pictures of celebrities with all their clothes *on*. When we have conversations, we actually take it in turns to talk! But we have not yet reached that level of earth-shattering boredom and inhuman despair that we would have a haircut *recreationally*. We don't know how to get excited about... really, *really* boring things, like ornaments, bath oil, the countryside, vases, small churches. I mean, we do not even know what, *what* in the name of God's *ass* is the purpose of potpourri! Looks like breakfast, smells like your auntie! Why do we need that? So please, in this strange and frightening world, allow us one last place to call our own. This toilet, this blessed pot, this... fortress of solitude. You girls, you may go to the bathroom in groups of two or more. Yet we do not pass comment. We do not make judgement. That is your choice. But we men will always walk the toilet mile... alone. [audience applauds]

THANK YOU SIR MAY I HAVE ANOTHER

Oh good golly miss molly, it's so nice to be here living breathing and looking forward to moving. and grooving. Sorry this is a little short, but I spent most of the night dealing with boys who can't sleep and emailing a friend who I have been neglecting. I'M SORRY JC FOR TAKING FOREVER TO RESPOND *DROPPING TO MY KNEES* PLEASE FIND IT IN YOUR LOVING AND CARING HEART TO FORGIVE THE WICKED WICKED WICKED MAN I AM
I really hope you forgive me soon, my knees are starting to hurt, but I'll be there, well until the boys wake up.

until than i remain begging and pleading for forgiveness man named

Jose

JUST SOME QUICK THOUGHTS ON NASCAR, RIVENDALE AND WHATEVER ELSE SEEMS TO POP IN THIS DEPRIVED STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS

Damnit damnit damnit!!! Sure I finally get sucked into the world of NASCAR and I find a driver who I'm willing to cheer into the winners circle, other than Jeff Gordon who did do an amazing job at the UAW-GM 500 which I know WG will hate me for even mentioning the name but driving from 40th place to coming in at 2nd at the finish, thats some good driving. Although it was at the expense of race leader Kasey Kahne who lead the race simply put. Till he had some bad luck. Sadly with him out of the race, that was the only chance any other driver would get. Than I thoght it would be the driver who through sheer class, good driving and all heart had a chance. Than in the 313 lap he wrecked. Mark Martin was out of the race, and might be completely out of the Chase for the Cup. To make matters worse he's not going to be racing fulltime next year, so that means this may be my drivers last chance at the Cup.
The worst part is I don't know this is pissing me off so much. I mean I'm fairly new, ok very very new to the world of NASCAR, but it's still upsetting.
It's all about Rivendale. Go Rivendale HODOGS. In the style of Kermit the Frog "YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!"

and with that said.....

see ya

Jose