WELL WELL WELL, LOOK WHAT THE CAT COUGHED UP

What up "G-folk"? I'm here again in a somewhat timely fashion. I have a few questions to answer before I get to the the reason for this season. First I work in a warehouse, not a factory, oh sweet aunt jemimah I could never do "factory" setting again. Yes, for some reason I do like NASCAR. I actually sit down and watch all 4 hours plus of these really fast cars turning left. It was kind of a shock to me too, and of course the minute I get a driver I wanna cheer for he decides that this is his last year of fulltime racing. Man I really have to work on my timing. No, fishing is still not on the top of my fun list. If you ask WG or her family, they can attest to my lack of desire for ice fishing. Now last summer I went fishing off the peir at her parents house. This was a choice of mine. I wanted to try it out to see the big appeal. I'll admit I did like the chance to relax on a warm day with a beer, sitting on the pier and doing nothing more than feeding the fish, but what would I do if I actually caught one?? That answer I don't know. As for football, that's a little easier to explain. Still not a great big fan of it, but I really do enjoy going to real life games as opposed to watching it on TV. You see, you really get caught in the excitement and exhileration, when 72,601 people start screaming and cheering. Now that's some cool shit. And no, I will never ever ever go by the name Joe. It's not my name, was never my name and I will never answer to said name.
Now on to other things. This is an explanation of things. It happens sometimes that by doing what I percieve to be the right course of action, sometimes is just the oppisite. I stopped buying comics over a year ago. Which means I haven't said anything to my friends who shop and work there in that same amount of time. I did this for basically one reason. Shame. I didn't want to be a "tool" and I knew with my mind set that's exactly where I was going. I figured that since the "the others" were still shopping there, I didn't want to put them in that awkward position. And I didn't want the guy's to see me at that particular point in my life. I had a demon to accept, a monkey on my back to tame and a lot of thinking and "resetting" to do. I had relied on so many people till this time that I knew there were some things that I needed to deal with alone. Well as time passed and miles passed, I figured that like other things in my existance, that they would simply forget about me. Well I guess I was wrong. It seems to happen more and more lately. But I still remember Feb 13. Wow is it 11 years?? I didn't forget, and thinking now I ws pretty dumb to think that you would have too. Oh yeah that Batman pin is now on my visor and has been since I moved up here. Just thought you'd like to know.

EXCERPTS FROM AN EMAIL, AND MY RESPONSES

You ever get the feelings that sometimes you don't know people as well you think you do. I moved away from Waukesha, partly because of the bad history I have there, partly because I didn't want to be running into people who I simply didn't want to see anymore but mostly I moved away simply because I hadn't been happy there for a long time. Yeah it took my ex dumping me to make me see that we both already knew that it wasn't going to work out. She just said it out loud before I did. But we both knew where it was headed long before that final fight. So time passes, and usually the only things we talk about are money (you see my car is in her name as is the loan, but almost 2 months ago we finally got that semi-straightened out) and that all. I was ok with that. I know that if you go back you can find the posting of said breakup and my somewhat jaded comments about it. I will admit that all of them are honest, but some are a bit more bitter (with everything being kinda fresh at the time) than I wanted them to be. It's been a year. It's been a one whole year since the fated question and answer that brought me here.

So now I know you are all wondering why I am here talking about the past? I got an email from the ex about a cell phone bill and after the cell phone statement she said

"How are things with the vehicle? How bout with your girl, you don't talk about her on your blog anymore."

so I said

both are good, and I didn't know you still read it, kinda figured you didn't care about what was happening in my world

Figuring that would be the end of it. Well as usual I was wrong. It seems to happen a lot. Cus the ex responded with this...

You were a part of my life for 8 years, I can't just walk away from that and not care anymore. I still check out the blog from time to time.
I told John and Other John about it too. I know John has checked it out but I don't know about Other John. I think John was looking for something about him and the "comic life" you left behind to be mentioned.
He askes me how you are doing when I see him and I get my information from your blog so you really gotta update it more.

Me

well this made me rethink a lot of things. Not in the I made a mistake kind of way, but in the we spent 8 years together, good and bad, and I don't know you at all kind of way. So I guess I'll be do a whole lot of updates, simply because i have a lot to talk about now. I was tenative to talk about certain things (my past) because even though I do share a lot of things here, I was very worried about how they would be taken by the people who they were about. I'll be honest, I was ready to kill this blog tonight. I had opened it and wrote my farewell speech. Than I got an email notice and read it. That was the above portion written by the ex...and than I realized one simple thing. I'm not done or dead. I have many many things to talk about, discuss and say. So at this moment I actually have to thank the ex, John and OJ (that's Other John) for making me realize one simple thing. The story is never over, it continues on and on.