I love you. I can hardly wait for work to be over tonight so I can see you. I miss your smile when you're not here, but when I close my eyes I can see it. And then I smile.
wow, I'm all mushy in notes. weird
Love you
your wife
I love you too,
Jose
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Showing posts with label Letters to Onaugh. Show all posts
8/04/2005
8/02/2005
TOO BORED TO WRITE
La la la la la la la la la la. me me me me me me me me me me me. Nothing to say today. So I' thought to do nuffin but waste some time. Ok I'm done.
Jose
Jose
7/29/2005
DEAR LIL ANGEL
Dear lil angel,
I know, I ain't been writing. I been keeping you in suspense as to what I'm going to say next. Well I'm here to talk you about a angels. I don't mean the ones that have wings and play harps.
I'm not talking the Nicholas Cage version from City of Angels. Nor am I talking about the baseball team. I'm talking about the ones that we see in our everyday lives. The ones who very honestly don't see in themselves the light and beauty the truly posess. I'm talking about the ones who let us down by making sure they kill that light inside them to become little, bitter and devoid of any goodness. The ones who turn into little monsters who have nothing but hate towards the people who were willing to listen to everything they said. Who understood all that they were going through, only to run those feelings of understanding and trust through, figuratively and literally, the proverbial pile of dog shit. The ones who run away from all their issues and than blames everything they have become on everybody but themselves. The ones who use sex as a tool to try and keep someone, only to be pissed and hurt when the "sex trap" doesn't work. Than blame the person and make it all their fault. I'm talking about the ones who won't say a damn word to your face but when you aren't there, they try and ruin the lives of the only people who still have respect for them. I'm talking about the ones who can talk shit about a race, and yet the person who still sees them as an angel is a part of that race. I'm talking about no one, because you simply stopped existing, the minute you tried fucking with my family.
Jose
I know, I ain't been writing. I been keeping you in suspense as to what I'm going to say next. Well I'm here to talk you about a angels. I don't mean the ones that have wings and play harps.
I'm not talking the Nicholas Cage version from City of Angels. Nor am I talking about the baseball team. I'm talking about the ones that we see in our everyday lives. The ones who very honestly don't see in themselves the light and beauty the truly posess. I'm talking about the ones who let us down by making sure they kill that light inside them to become little, bitter and devoid of any goodness. The ones who turn into little monsters who have nothing but hate towards the people who were willing to listen to everything they said. Who understood all that they were going through, only to run those feelings of understanding and trust through, figuratively and literally, the proverbial pile of dog shit. The ones who run away from all their issues and than blames everything they have become on everybody but themselves. The ones who use sex as a tool to try and keep someone, only to be pissed and hurt when the "sex trap" doesn't work. Than blame the person and make it all their fault. I'm talking about the ones who won't say a damn word to your face but when you aren't there, they try and ruin the lives of the only people who still have respect for them. I'm talking about the ones who can talk shit about a race, and yet the person who still sees them as an angel is a part of that race. I'm talking about no one, because you simply stopped existing, the minute you tried fucking with my family.
Jose
6/21/2005
MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME
1 Full Name: Jose
2 Date of Birth: June 2
3 Place of Birth: Mexico
4 Time of Birth: 11 am
5 Location: WI
6 What are you labeled (skater, goth, prep, nerd, or other?): GDI (gawd damned individual)
7 Zodiac sign: Gemini
8 Pets: Rocky (RIP)
9 Nicknames: nope
10 Where else have you lived? WI, TX, CA
11 Hobbies: Internet, Movies, Reading, Trying new energy drinks
12 Do you have a job? Yes
13 If so, what kind of job? Warehouse Jackoff
14 If not, what kind of job do you want to have?
15 What languages, if any, do you speak? English, some Spanish and some French
16 Are you a night, day, or morning person? Night
17 Are you ticklish? Only when not expecting it
18 Do you have a car? Yes
19 What kind of car do you have/want? Have an Isuzu Rodeo, want's a corvette Stingray
Your looks: 20 fingernail color: natural colorings
21 Are your nails real or fake? real
22 Shoe size: 12 1/2 EEE
23 Height: 5’10”
24 Weight: dunno at all, but I lost over 18 inches
25 Eye color: brown (almost black)
26 Hair Color: dark brown usually, currently a rusty red
27 Hair length: a bit over the collar
28 Do you have braces? no
29 Do you have glasses/contacts? Glasses as of May
30 Have you ever dyed your hair? Well yeah of course
31 What perfume/cologne do you wear? I don't
32 If so, What color? see the answer question number 26
33 If not, but you want to. What color do you want to dye it? Royal blue with red ends
34 Do you wear a watch? Only at work
35 Do you wear sunglasses? When I can find them yes
36 Do you use nair? No
37 If so, where?
38 Do you like how you look? More so now han ever before
39 What would you change about yourself? I'd wear a size 36 waist for pants
40 Do you have any piercings or tattoos? 2 tattoos and 2 in each ear
41 Do you stand out in a crowd? Only if I don't like the crowd
42 Do you take showers or baths? shower for now, but working on getting a bath tub
2 Date of Birth: June 2
3 Place of Birth: Mexico
4 Time of Birth: 11 am
5 Location: WI
6 What are you labeled (skater, goth, prep, nerd, or other?): GDI (gawd damned individual)
7 Zodiac sign: Gemini
8 Pets: Rocky (RIP)
9 Nicknames: nope
10 Where else have you lived? WI, TX, CA
11 Hobbies: Internet, Movies, Reading, Trying new energy drinks
12 Do you have a job? Yes
13 If so, what kind of job? Warehouse Jackoff
14 If not, what kind of job do you want to have?
15 What languages, if any, do you speak? English, some Spanish and some French
16 Are you a night, day, or morning person? Night
17 Are you ticklish? Only when not expecting it
18 Do you have a car? Yes
19 What kind of car do you have/want? Have an Isuzu Rodeo, want's a corvette Stingray
Your looks: 20 fingernail color: natural colorings
21 Are your nails real or fake? real
22 Shoe size: 12 1/2 EEE
23 Height: 5’10”
24 Weight: dunno at all, but I lost over 18 inches
25 Eye color: brown (almost black)
26 Hair Color: dark brown usually, currently a rusty red
27 Hair length: a bit over the collar
28 Do you have braces? no
29 Do you have glasses/contacts? Glasses as of May
30 Have you ever dyed your hair? Well yeah of course
31 What perfume/cologne do you wear? I don't
32 If so, What color? see the answer question number 26
33 If not, but you want to. What color do you want to dye it? Royal blue with red ends
34 Do you wear a watch? Only at work
35 Do you wear sunglasses? When I can find them yes
36 Do you use nair? No
37 If so, where?
38 Do you like how you look? More so now han ever before
39 What would you change about yourself? I'd wear a size 36 waist for pants
40 Do you have any piercings or tattoos? 2 tattoos and 2 in each ear
41 Do you stand out in a crowd? Only if I don't like the crowd
42 Do you take showers or baths? shower for now, but working on getting a bath tub
6/18/2005
IF SEX AND SEX SURVEYS OFFEND YOU...THAN GO AWAY
BASICS
1. what's your first name?
Jose
2. male or female?
Male
3. how old are you?
33
4. What country or state do you live in?
Wisconsin
5. would you say your straight, gay or bi?
Straight
YOUR BODY
6. describe what you look like physically:
Dark hair, brown eyes, 5'10", pooh belly, broad shoulders
7. ok now guys, how big is it honestly? And girls, how many fingers can you fit?
Dunno, never measured
8. and if you haven't told us already girls, what size are your tits, and guys, r u cut or uncut?
Uncut
9. and how big are your nipples, and are they pink or brown? Small brown ones
10. what's your favorite part of your body?
My legs
11. what's your favorite body part on the other sex?
The butt
12. what's your favorite place on your body to be kissed?
My nipples
13. do you have any special names for your privates or what do u call them?
Naughty spots
14. do you shave your pubic hair, trim, wax, have a racing strip, leave it natural or what?
I shave
GETTING PERSONAL NOW
15. do you masturbate (don't lie now)?
Yes
16. how often do you masturbate?
Used to be 4-5 times a week but that's been shortened thanks to having a great wife
17. how many people have you slept with?
I don’t know
18. how old were you when you lost your virginity?
12
19. who did you lose it to?
My babysitter
20. do you regret your first time?
Sometimes, usually when in a mood
21. do you have any sexual regrets?
Yes
22. have you ever had sex with a virgin?
No
23. what's the biggest age difference between you and someone you've had sex with?
21 years
24. how often would you have sex in an ideal relationship?
A lot
25. and when was the last time you actually did have sex?
This morning
26. when was the last time you had an orgasm?
This morning
27. have you ever had a one night stand?
Yes
28. what sort of contraception do you normally use?
Condoms
29. have you ever had phone sex?
Yes
30. have you ever had cyber sex?
Yes
31. have you ever devoted a whole day 2 sex?
Yes
32. lights on or off?
A small lamp
33. do you prefer to give or receive oral sex?
Give
34. do you prefer oral sex or normal sex?
Actual sex
35. do you prefer giving/receiving blowjobs or hand jobs?
Both are great thanks to my wife
36. do you prefer eating/being eaten or fingering/being fingered?
Both eating and fingering at the same time
37. girls, have you ever used your tits to get a guy off, or guys, have you ever had a girl use her tits 2 get you off?
Yes
38. what's your favorite position?
On top
39. what's the most number of positions you've used in 1 sex session?
5
40. do you like sex best rough, gentle, fast, slow, or how?
Slow and gentle and then everything else
41. do you get turned on by pain?
Yes
42. have you ever tried anal sex and if so did u like it?
Yes, but it's not my first choice
43. how do you feel about sex when you or your partner is on her period?
I don’t mind it
ORGASMS AND CUM
44. girls, have you ever or do you ever fake orgasms?
Not a girl
45. what's the most number of orgasms you have had together, or in one sex session?
3
46. can you cum from just having sex?
Umm being a guy....well yeah
47. what sort of orgasm do you normally have (do you moan, pant, gasp, scream or what)?
Moan and gasp
48. spit or swallow?
Umm...neither
49. girls, do you like the taste of cum, or guys, do you like the taste of pussy?
YES!!!
50. have you ever tasted your own love juices?
Yes
51. what did you think of the taste?
ummmm...hmm...not my first choice
52. what's the kinkiest thing you've ever done with cum?
me? nuthin
MOSTLY HAVE U EVERS
53. have you or do you ever look at porno magazines?
Yes
54. have you or do you ever watch porno videos?
Yes
55. have you ever watched a live stripper?
Yes
56. have you ever watched a live sex show?
No
57. have you ever used toys during sex?
Yes
58. have you ever used sex toys on your own?
Yes
59. have you ever used another object that wasn't really a toy during sex?
Yes
60. have you ever used another object that wasn't really a toy on your own?
No
61. how do you feel about talking during sex?
I like it
62. Are you usually loud during sex?
No
63. have you ever woken up somebody else in the same house when your having sex?
Yes
64. have you ever had complaints from the neighbours about your noise during sex?
Yes
65. have you ever been given open praise 4 your sexual technique?
Yes
66. have you or do you ever think about other people when your having sex?
Not anymore
67. have you ever called out someone else's name during sex?
Yes
68. have you ever had sex in a car?
Yes
69. if yes, was the car moving?
No
70. have you ever had sex in the water (pool, ocean, etc.)?
Yes
71. have you ever had sex in the shower?
Yes
72. what's the strangest place you ever had sex?
Catholic church confessional
73. have you ever had sex at work or school?
Yes
74. do you ever role play in the bedroom?
Yes
75. have you ever used food for sexual purposes?
Yes
76. have you ever had a threesome or any sort of group sex?
Yes
77. have you ever had sex with more than one person during a 24-hour period but not at the same time?
Yes
78. have you ever had sex with other people in the room?
Yes
79. have you ever been caught masturbating?
Yes
80. have you ever caught anyone else masturbating?
Yes
81. have you ever been caught having sex?
Yes
82. have you ever caught anyone else having sex?
Yes
83. have you ever watched anyone masturbate?
Yes
84. have you ever let anyone watch you masturbate?
Yes
85. have you ever watched anyone have sex?
Yes
86. has anyone ever watched you having sex?
Yes
87. have you ever watched yourself?
Yes
88. have you ever kissed anyone of the same sex?
No
89. have you ever had a sexual experience with someone of the same sex?
No
90. have you ever had sex with 2 people in the same family?
Yes
91. have you ever had sex with someone related to you?
No
92. have you ever had sex with an animal?
No
93. have you ever had pains as a result of sexual acts?
Yes
94. have you ever fallen asleep during sex?
Yes
95. have you ever answered the phone while you were having sex and kept going?
Yes
96. have you ever broken anything having sex?
Yes
AND FINALLY
97. describe your worst sexual experience:
Having sex with anyone you don't really like and pretending you're really into it
98. describe your best sexual experience:
MY wife
99. describe your biggest fantasy:
Right now can't think of one...I'll get back to it later
100. and finally, what's the kinkiest thing you've ever done?
It all depends on what you call kinky
1. what's your first name?
Jose
2. male or female?
Male
3. how old are you?
33
4. What country or state do you live in?
Wisconsin
5. would you say your straight, gay or bi?
Straight
YOUR BODY
6. describe what you look like physically:
Dark hair, brown eyes, 5'10", pooh belly, broad shoulders
7. ok now guys, how big is it honestly? And girls, how many fingers can you fit?
Dunno, never measured
8. and if you haven't told us already girls, what size are your tits, and guys, r u cut or uncut?
Uncut
9. and how big are your nipples, and are they pink or brown? Small brown ones
10. what's your favorite part of your body?
My legs
11. what's your favorite body part on the other sex?
The butt
12. what's your favorite place on your body to be kissed?
My nipples
13. do you have any special names for your privates or what do u call them?
Naughty spots
14. do you shave your pubic hair, trim, wax, have a racing strip, leave it natural or what?
I shave
GETTING PERSONAL NOW
15. do you masturbate (don't lie now)?
Yes
16. how often do you masturbate?
Used to be 4-5 times a week but that's been shortened thanks to having a great wife
17. how many people have you slept with?
I don’t know
18. how old were you when you lost your virginity?
12
19. who did you lose it to?
My babysitter
20. do you regret your first time?
Sometimes, usually when in a mood
21. do you have any sexual regrets?
Yes
22. have you ever had sex with a virgin?
No
23. what's the biggest age difference between you and someone you've had sex with?
21 years
24. how often would you have sex in an ideal relationship?
A lot
25. and when was the last time you actually did have sex?
This morning
26. when was the last time you had an orgasm?
This morning
27. have you ever had a one night stand?
Yes
28. what sort of contraception do you normally use?
Condoms
29. have you ever had phone sex?
Yes
30. have you ever had cyber sex?
Yes
31. have you ever devoted a whole day 2 sex?
Yes
32. lights on or off?
A small lamp
33. do you prefer to give or receive oral sex?
Give
34. do you prefer oral sex or normal sex?
Actual sex
35. do you prefer giving/receiving blowjobs or hand jobs?
Both are great thanks to my wife
36. do you prefer eating/being eaten or fingering/being fingered?
Both eating and fingering at the same time
37. girls, have you ever used your tits to get a guy off, or guys, have you ever had a girl use her tits 2 get you off?
Yes
38. what's your favorite position?
On top
39. what's the most number of positions you've used in 1 sex session?
5
40. do you like sex best rough, gentle, fast, slow, or how?
Slow and gentle and then everything else
41. do you get turned on by pain?
Yes
42. have you ever tried anal sex and if so did u like it?
Yes, but it's not my first choice
43. how do you feel about sex when you or your partner is on her period?
I don’t mind it
ORGASMS AND CUM
44. girls, have you ever or do you ever fake orgasms?
Not a girl
45. what's the most number of orgasms you have had together, or in one sex session?
3
46. can you cum from just having sex?
Umm being a guy....well yeah
47. what sort of orgasm do you normally have (do you moan, pant, gasp, scream or what)?
Moan and gasp
48. spit or swallow?
Umm...neither
49. girls, do you like the taste of cum, or guys, do you like the taste of pussy?
YES!!!
50. have you ever tasted your own love juices?
Yes
51. what did you think of the taste?
ummmm...hmm...not my first choice
52. what's the kinkiest thing you've ever done with cum?
me? nuthin
MOSTLY HAVE U EVERS
53. have you or do you ever look at porno magazines?
Yes
54. have you or do you ever watch porno videos?
Yes
55. have you ever watched a live stripper?
Yes
56. have you ever watched a live sex show?
No
57. have you ever used toys during sex?
Yes
58. have you ever used sex toys on your own?
Yes
59. have you ever used another object that wasn't really a toy during sex?
Yes
60. have you ever used another object that wasn't really a toy on your own?
No
61. how do you feel about talking during sex?
I like it
62. Are you usually loud during sex?
No
63. have you ever woken up somebody else in the same house when your having sex?
Yes
64. have you ever had complaints from the neighbours about your noise during sex?
Yes
65. have you ever been given open praise 4 your sexual technique?
Yes
66. have you or do you ever think about other people when your having sex?
Not anymore
67. have you ever called out someone else's name during sex?
Yes
68. have you ever had sex in a car?
Yes
69. if yes, was the car moving?
No
70. have you ever had sex in the water (pool, ocean, etc.)?
Yes
71. have you ever had sex in the shower?
Yes
72. what's the strangest place you ever had sex?
Catholic church confessional
73. have you ever had sex at work or school?
Yes
74. do you ever role play in the bedroom?
Yes
75. have you ever used food for sexual purposes?
Yes
76. have you ever had a threesome or any sort of group sex?
Yes
77. have you ever had sex with more than one person during a 24-hour period but not at the same time?
Yes
78. have you ever had sex with other people in the room?
Yes
79. have you ever been caught masturbating?
Yes
80. have you ever caught anyone else masturbating?
Yes
81. have you ever been caught having sex?
Yes
82. have you ever caught anyone else having sex?
Yes
83. have you ever watched anyone masturbate?
Yes
84. have you ever let anyone watch you masturbate?
Yes
85. have you ever watched anyone have sex?
Yes
86. has anyone ever watched you having sex?
Yes
87. have you ever watched yourself?
Yes
88. have you ever kissed anyone of the same sex?
No
89. have you ever had a sexual experience with someone of the same sex?
No
90. have you ever had sex with 2 people in the same family?
Yes
91. have you ever had sex with someone related to you?
No
92. have you ever had sex with an animal?
No
93. have you ever had pains as a result of sexual acts?
Yes
94. have you ever fallen asleep during sex?
Yes
95. have you ever answered the phone while you were having sex and kept going?
Yes
96. have you ever broken anything having sex?
Yes
AND FINALLY
97. describe your worst sexual experience:
Having sex with anyone you don't really like and pretending you're really into it
98. describe your best sexual experience:
MY wife
99. describe your biggest fantasy:
Right now can't think of one...I'll get back to it later
100. and finally, what's the kinkiest thing you've ever done?
It all depends on what you call kinky
5/24/2005
DEAR CUPID
Dear Cupid,
How are ya? I was just wondering why are you such a complicated little prick? Why did you make it so hard for me to find my other half? I mean you put her almost five hours away and you made it so I couldn't meet her unless a former mutual friend introduced us. Than you made the former mutual friend who than became my girlfriend fight like a christian in the roman amphitheater against a lion to keep us apart. I mean is it so hard to make it a little bit easier? I mean we finally found a way for our paths to merge as one and now we walk as one. But c'mon already. Now I'm making a case for other people, the lonely and the desperate, who need someone too. Let it go, love shouldn't be so hard to come by. Just something for you too look into and hopefully do something about.
Sincerely,
Jose
How are ya? I was just wondering why are you such a complicated little prick? Why did you make it so hard for me to find my other half? I mean you put her almost five hours away and you made it so I couldn't meet her unless a former mutual friend introduced us. Than you made the former mutual friend who than became my girlfriend fight like a christian in the roman amphitheater against a lion to keep us apart. I mean is it so hard to make it a little bit easier? I mean we finally found a way for our paths to merge as one and now we walk as one. But c'mon already. Now I'm making a case for other people, the lonely and the desperate, who need someone too. Let it go, love shouldn't be so hard to come by. Just something for you too look into and hopefully do something about.
Sincerely,
Jose
5/21/2005
DEAR EX-FRIEND
Dear Ex-friend,
How dare you take something as simple as an affirmation of friendship, question others about it and than talk to a person who has no right to know any of this. I considered you a friend and a confidant, but I see all you are is a jezebel who takes pleasure in stoking fires of ill will between people. How dare you take such liberties with MY life in such a manner. If you had any questions or reservations as to what my words meant, it should have been me you came too. Up until this moment I held you in high regard and defended your character from many slanderous statements. No longer will I do that. I can see clearly I did not lose a friend, because a friend would never have done that. All you have done is make my life much simpler, by excluding you from my world and inner circle of trusted individuals who do have my confidence, conviction and credence. Thank you again for your deceitful and insincere ways, for my life shines brighter now that YOU are not in it.
Jose
How dare you take something as simple as an affirmation of friendship, question others about it and than talk to a person who has no right to know any of this. I considered you a friend and a confidant, but I see all you are is a jezebel who takes pleasure in stoking fires of ill will between people. How dare you take such liberties with MY life in such a manner. If you had any questions or reservations as to what my words meant, it should have been me you came too. Up until this moment I held you in high regard and defended your character from many slanderous statements. No longer will I do that. I can see clearly I did not lose a friend, because a friend would never have done that. All you have done is make my life much simpler, by excluding you from my world and inner circle of trusted individuals who do have my confidence, conviction and credence. Thank you again for your deceitful and insincere ways, for my life shines brighter now that YOU are not in it.
Jose
5/07/2005
DEAR GOD
Dear God,
What's up? I know we don't talk much anymore, but hey we're both pretty busy nowadays. I just have some things I need to ask you? I mean why did you give us free will only to punish us for using it? I mean it's not like you gave us an instruction manual to go with it. You didn't give it to your first creations nor did you give it to anything else. In your book you said that we were the favorites of all your creations, yet you abandoned your first born, never forgiving them, but you than sacrificed your "true" son only to give the rest of us a chance at forgiveness, but did you ever forgive the first "betrayers"? I don't think you did, nor do I think you ever will. You are just being a stubborn parent who was crossed, and even though you were and are wrong you still won't admit it. I think that's a pretty selfish thing. I think it's a pretty human thing. I think it's about time you got over it.
Jose
What's up? I know we don't talk much anymore, but hey we're both pretty busy nowadays. I just have some things I need to ask you? I mean why did you give us free will only to punish us for using it? I mean it's not like you gave us an instruction manual to go with it. You didn't give it to your first creations nor did you give it to anything else. In your book you said that we were the favorites of all your creations, yet you abandoned your first born, never forgiving them, but you than sacrificed your "true" son only to give the rest of us a chance at forgiveness, but did you ever forgive the first "betrayers"? I don't think you did, nor do I think you ever will. You are just being a stubborn parent who was crossed, and even though you were and are wrong you still won't admit it. I think that's a pretty selfish thing. I think it's a pretty human thing. I think it's about time you got over it.
Jose
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