DIABLO II

Current mood: content


QUOTE OF THE DAY:
“Somehow our devils are never quite what we expect when we meet them face to face.”
Nelson DeMille


Hola again my friends, Romans and countryman. I have not been neglecting you. I have been lured away by the Diablo. Well to be precise Diablo II. Yea I know...LOOK AT THE CUTTING EDGE GAMER, HOO RAAAAH!!! I'm actually trying to finish it...for once. I have started it over so many times I can practically recite the first level word for word.

My problem is that I have no patience for video games. I got Dungeon Siege for my wife back when we first got together, and she finished it in 1-2 weeks. (Sadly she would have finished it sooner, if it wasn't for me wanting to molest the willing) Well yours truly took 6 months to finish it. That's also asking Season for the answers and directions and any cheats she was willing to give me.

So as I said before (a week ago) everything I have ever started before, I'm going to finish which means (just to give you an idea) I have to buy a few vital accessories for "my axe", call for lessons, read the entire Harry Potter series, finish Diablo II, organize my non-sports trading cards, books, Cd's, DVDs, finish organizing the library, as of August 31st quit smoking, lose 40 pounds, cut my hair AND keep it short.

Yes these are things I have started and with my 3 second attention span, I never finished. Some are a big deal, some not so much. But they are things that I have to accomplish. For me. I figure I'm 35 years old, and I'm not getting any younger, so I might as well start now and get as much done as I can.

OK, that's all for tonight...talk to you all soon.

Currently listening : Not a Moment Too Soon By Tim McGraw Release date: 22 March, 1994

I DON'T KNOW

Current mood: scared

I'm scared and hurt.

That's what I'm feeling right now.

Why scared? My wife got some news today that scares me. She has to talk to her doctor to find the specifics, but no matter what, the news affects our future considerably. I didn't think that it would really matter, but it seems she thinks I am so shallow that it would have. So now I'm scared. I thought our future was very stable. Now I'm not so sure. Maybe it's nothing. Maybe I'm just being over dramatic. I don't know. Right now that's the scariest thing.

Why hurt? Because she thinks if we got this news earlier, that it would have changed things. It wouldn't have. I've told her this so many times, but last night she actually said if we knew this 15 months ago, things would have been different.

I'm scared.

I'm hurt.

And sadly the only place I can talk about it is here. It's a pretty shitty knowing I have everything going in a positive direction and 16 hours later, the only certain thing is that I'm breathing. That everything else is up for grabs.

Screw it, I'm going to bed.

Currently listening: Enuff Z'Nuff By Enuff Z'Nuff Release date: 07 August, 1989

TIME TO START DOING

Current mood: anxious

Hey all, what's up? I was sitting here wondering what I should write about. Than I got hungry. I decided to munch on some italian grub and watch Monday Night Raw. Than I came back afterwards and here I am. Over the weekend I bought a guitar at a flea market (something I have always wanted) and as soon as I buy some strings, I'm going to learn how to play it. It seems really weird to me, that at 35 years old, I'm going to try to learn something very new. I have never had much patience when it comes to instruments. when I was in 4th grade I tried to learn the trumpet. I got bored. When I was 16 I bought a bass guitar, but it was more imprtant for me to go out and spend time with girls, or at concerts, or doing all those things that when I look back on it, were just excuses to NOT take the time and learn. So this weekend I'm getting the strings I need, and a guitar cable, and I'm going to start learning scales. I figure it's about time I actually do something instead of just wishing or dreaming I could.

That's actually going to be my goals for upcoming days. I'm going to focus on all those things that I have said I should do or start, that I keep putting off. It's ironic that a 30 dollar investment, has rekindled my desire to try to accomplish all those things that I have kept making excuses for not doing or putting off.

Maybe it's bigger than that. Maybe it's time I start to live in the realm of possibilities, instead of the land of excuses.

Currently reading : Rumpole and the Angel of Death By John Mortimer Release date: 01 March, 1997

A LOT OF WORDS...sorta

Current mood: hungry

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"The best way to fill time is to waste it."
Marguerite Duras

It seems that yes I am able to post everyday, with all the crap that I have started, quizzes and surveys, links and an occasional original thought. But I also realized that I can make a schedule and keep to it. I also realized that it started being less fun. I started running out of things I wanted to say, especially things of importance. i went back and read a months worth of my own entries, and by the end I could tell it was forced. So instead of doing that again, I will be on here as much as I want to...but I won't force things anymore. OK with that said...

Hello hi and how in blue hell are all of you? I couldn't sleep today even though I was thoroughly exhausted. So I watched the end of the World Series of Pop Culture (you know being a trivia junkie that I am) and then I came on here. I didn't feel like blogging so instead i played around and changed my profiles for myspace and hi-5. I really like the way they turned out. By the way if these are your images I use them in the utmost respect and in pure admiration of what you have created visually.

So after that I started playing around on Project Play list. I'm actually really enjoying going all over the musical field there. Finding songs that I totally love along with some music I had never heard before. If you get a chance check out my play lists.

COACE AUDIO

I don't think I have to tell you that's the link there do I ?I've also been trying to get to my flickr page upload at least 3-4 times a week. I have been doing pretty good so far. That's where I'm putting most of my pics. It's just easier, and I love easy.

COACE VISUALS

Yuppers boys and girls...another link.Well as I'm doing this I'm jamming with Pearl Jam. I love those guys. They have such a great rock sound. Thick and chunky music with Eddie's lyrics is just frikken awesome. I don't think that there's a single song I truly don't like by them. I have my favorites, but even a weak PJ song is better than most bands great songs. Just my opinion, but since this is my page, I'm allowed to express any and all of my opinions.

My wife has not been feeling that great for quite a while now. I'm not going to go into details, mainly because she would most definitely proceed directly into stark raving homicidal bitch, and yours truly would most certainly face a certain fatal doom. Although, there are a few people who would probably like that...but as I am oft to say, "Sorry, but not today!" Well as I was saying, Season been all over the place with her emotions, stress levels, pain and sometimes lack of pain management, which has made life for your favorite waste of space, a whole lot of shades more colorful and difficult too. I'm not really complaining but as I explained it to her..."Sometimes it's like when you go to Perkins and you want a key lime pie, and you have had your heart so completely set on this wonderful piece of pie...then you get there, and all they have is apple. Now don't get me wrong apple is a great pie, but when you have had your heart set on Key lime, that no matter how good that apple pie is, it's still kind of a let down." So because of this I was unable to see Alpha Rev at Summerfest on July 8, and because of this I also missed Poison at the "Rock"esha County Fair, which was yesterday. But I would rather carry that little bit of disappointment, than to have my wife in any more pain and discomfort than is unnecessary. Will I whine about once she starts feeling better...you bet your sweet bippy I will. But I can wait.

Currently listening : Animaniacs: Yakko's World - Sing About The World According To Yakko, Wakko And Dot By Richard Stone Release date: 06 September, 1994

SAP ATTACK

Current mood: thoughtful
Well I started going through music again...than I ended up watching a few Travis Tritt videos...I got all weepy and sentimental and now...well this is for my wife.

TRAVIS TRITT

More Than You'll Ever Know


I know living with me ain't always easy
I dam up emotions some men just let flow
But girl when you're not by my side I feel a part of me has died
'Cause I love you more than you'll ever know

More than life more than I've ever loved before
It's absurd and beyond words
I couldn't want you more
And when I try to pour my hear out to you
I'm not sure it shows
That I love you more than you'll ever know

I'm sure you've heard it said hearts have windows
But mine has doors a painful past has closed
Unless someday they open wide revealing feelings locked inside
I'll love you more than you'll ever know

More than life more than I've ever loved before
It's absurd and beyond words
I couldn't want you more
And when I try to pour my hear out to you
I'm not sure it shows
That I love you more than you'll ever know

Even when I pour my heart out to you
I'm not sure it shows
That I love you more than you'll ever know
Yes I love you more than you'll ever know

Currently listening : Ten Feet Tall and Bulletproof By Travis Tritt Release date: 10 May, 1994

UNDER THE WEATHER

Current mood: blah

I hate feeling like crap. I hate when my body does not coopertate with the real world. You know, when you're finally getting back on financial track, than you end up not being able to be farther than 10 feet from the bathroom, and you realize that your body just shat on the progress you were making. After that, let's include the fact of not being able to sit down comfortably, consuming gatorade and water like it your very soul depends on it. I hate being afraid to fall asleep for obvious reasons. AND that my friends, is how I spent the last 17 hours of my day. I'm also really glad I could share this with you. I hate days like this.

Currently watching : Strictly Ballroom Release date: 19 March, 2002

UNPLANNED THOUGHTS AND REVELATIONS

Current mood: sleepy


ok this is unlike my random thoughts entries. usually with my random thoughts i sit there before hand and just think about what is bugging me or makes me happy. this is me just sitting here, and literally just typing what i'm thinking about. so umm...let me know what you think.


QUOTE OF THE DAY:
“My mind is filled with wonder, my heart with fright. When will this feeling stop? When did it start? How can I listen to my mind without breaking my heart? I’m so confused, what should I do?...I can’t think straight, my heart controls my mind.”
Anonymous


I sit here after midnight, while gently tap tapping on my computer keyboard,
than I hear a loud scratching upon my chamber door,
I look over and see a kitty scratching and scratching upon the front of my chamber door,
softly and sternly I say "be gone kitty of hell, away from my chamber door!"
kitty looks at me. A quiet yawn, than starts scratch, scratching, gazes at me, than says
NEVER MORE BEEEEYOTCH!!!!!!!!

Sadly that little tale is real and I shared it with you.

I've been an emotional basket case the last couple of weeks. If I'm not laughing like a hyena, I'm crying like a little girl. This is of course said with the utmost respect for all little girls in the world. Sad movies, sad songs, happy movies and happy songs, I'm either one extreme or the other. I hate it when I'm so screwed up emotionally.

Season and I went to see Harry Potter on Friday. Gawd I hate teenagers. The nice thing is that they scare easy...especially when you are a fat, unshaven, long haired, pissed off Mexican. Well that and when they overhear you tell your wife "Kicking the shit out of a couple of kids with cell phones will put me back for a few years but it'll be easy time!" Than all of a sudden we realized that about 8-9 people shut off their phones. Oh yeah baby I gots me some MAD skillz. But harry Potter was very good. It was actually the best Potter movie so far, in my opinion. So go see it.

My father is dying. Or so my mother tells me. I don't quite know how to deal with this bit of news. When I was very little, my mom told me that my father left us. Well my wife tells me, that is not the same thing my mom told her. Season said my mom told her that she sent my father packing. I don't actually know who to believe, because knowing my mother, either one could be a lie. All I know is depending on where my father is, I guess I'll be seeing him at least one more time.

I absolutely love my wife. I find this truth unchanging no matter what happens. No matter what the fights or arguments about. No matter what words are said, or how much they hurt I need this woman, in every way possible. I worry about her when she hurts, I miss her when she's gone, I'm relieved to see her when I get home and the only place I ever truly want to be is in her arms. Who knew I would ever grow to need someone so thoroughly and completely?

This is a bit of information for all who rent movies. You should get the blockbuster total access thingy. You choose a bunch of movies online, 3 get sent to you, you mail them back, you get 3 more movies sent to you. OK, now here's where you can get the most for your money. Ready? It works like this. You do the online thing choose your movies, but don't choose any new releases. Watch the first set of movies you get, don't mail them back...instead go to blockbuster and return them at the store. You get a free movie rental for each of the movies you rented online. At this point choose the new releases. Once you do that, the computer system tells the online renting system that the movies are returned, and the new movies will be sent to you basically the very next mailing day. The membership is like 18 bucks. So after you do this figure it out. 3 movies, well figure they are dollar rentals, so there is 3 bucks. You return them to your local Blockbuster get 3 free new releases. At 4 bucks a pop that's a new total of 15 bucks. So by the time you get your second set of movies mailed to you rental fee wise, your ahead. OK that's my product placing moment of the month. Sorta.

OK why is it that every "fantasy" movie that's coming out is an imaginary story with heart breaking moment. Pan's Labyrinth and Bridge to Terabithia are both very beautiful, moving , but tragic movies. PL is almost painfully brutal and heart wrenching story about a girl whose imagination starts to cross over into reality. Where she confuses them both, with very catastrophic results. BtT is a tale of friendship, hope, belonging, sadness and transcending that sadness back to hope. It's about outsiders finding each other and in each other finding what is missing from themselves. Than the sadness comes into play. Like I said they are both wonderful and amazing stories. They just have some unbearable moments that just tears at your heart.

I have to ask all of you who read this...why do you? I'm not much more than a guy whose using this to practise typing and trying to form non-confusing sentences. I usually share more on here than I should, and don't tell you all I could. I was just wondering is all.

If any of you get a chance check out CoaceAudio. If there's any thing you want to hear let me know, through comments or emails.

Does anybody want a cat??? I have 1 I'm willing to part with. Season if you are reading this I am kidding. If you're not Season I'm not kidding. ;-)

Damn it...be right back. I got to find a lighter, the one I was using just died.

I realized how much of a whiner one of my co-workers was this week. I work in a metal-fab shop. Well on Monday one of the guys I work with said something truly stupid, and kept digging himself into a deeper hole. He also complained that me and my partner talked to the boss too long (while he is guilty of doing this on an almost daily basis). He was actually whining that he didn't get any boss face time. So what kind of man would I be if I let it go? I'd be a great man if I did that. Sadly I'm just an OK guy so I jumped all over him. Then on Tuesday he did it again, although it was a different stupid statement, and still whining about lack of boss face time. This time another co-worker and I jumped all over him, using his own comments from previous times against him. He pouted the rest of his shift and didn't talk to any of us. Now come Wednesday, he didn't talk to anybody and pouted his way through his entire shift. I have come to the conclusion that he can dish it out but whiny lil bitch can't take the ribbing. So on Thursday, he finally got some boss face time and all was right in the world. I have concluded that he will be forever known as whiny lil bitch, and am keeping all conversations with him to just some civil pleasantries. I mean I wouldn't want to hurt his feelings...again.

Ok well I just spell checked and re-read all of this and now I want to sleep with my wife. Good night all.

Currently listening : Greatest Hits (w/ Bonus DVD) By Creed Release date: 23 November, 2004

40 Things Rarely Asked

Current mood: dorky

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"I am nobody
Nobody is perfect
Therefore, I must be perfect!"
ANONYMOUS

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
YES

2. Do you have any weird sleeping habits?
I HAVE TO SLEEP WHILE LAYING ON MY ARMS...KIND OF LIKE A CAT

3. When's the last time you swam in a lake?
9 DAYS AGO

4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
WITH MY WIFE

5. Where is the Wizard of Oz?
THE BOOK OR THE MOVIE?

6. Can there really be "too much of a good thing"?
ALAWAYS

7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
YES

8. Christina Aguilera or Britney Spears?
DEPENDS...SINGING CHRISTINA...PITY BRITNEY

9. Do you stay friends with your exes?
IS CIVIL THE SMAE AS FRIENDLY?

10. Do you know how to play poker?
YES...AND IT USUALLY INVOLVES A LOT ACTION, AND NO BLUFFING...OH WAIT YOU MEAN THE CARD GAME

11. How long until we leave for the private island?
WHO'S WE?

12. What's your favorite commercial?
THE ONE THAT I CAN FAST FORWARD THROUGH

13. What type of food do you eat the most?
THE NON POISONOUS KIND OR MY WIFE...YOU PICK WHICH ANSWER YOU LIKE BEST

14.When was the last time you had a lot of fun?
WHENEVR MY WIFE DOES NOT FEEL UNDER THE WEATHER

15. Have you ever had a Choco Taco?
YES

16. Who Do You Think Is Better, The Boston Red Sox or the New
York Yankees?
SORRY I DON'T REALLY FOLLOW HOCKEY

17. What color of underwear do you have on?
UMM...NONE

18. How often do you forget your dreams?
ALL THE TIME

19. When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried?
CAN'T REMEMBER

20. Can you name 5 songs by N'SYNC?
PROBABLY

21. What's the one thing on your mind right now?
COMING UP WITH INFORMATIVE YET FUNNY ANSWERS FOR THIS PARTICULAR QUIZ

22. Been pierced or tattooed?
YES AND YES

23. Do you put salt on a turkey dinner?
ABSOLUTELY

24. Do you always wear your seat belt?
NOPE

25. What cell service do you use?
NONE

26. Do you like bananas?
YES I LIKE BANANAS

27. Have you almost gotten in a car accident?
YES

28. What do you wear to bed?
THE PAJAMA'S GOD GAVE ME

29. Been caught stealing?
NOPE

30. Do you know how to play pool?
YES

31. Can you play pool well?
NOPE

32. Do you truly love anyone?
ABSOLUTELY...JUST ASK MY WIFE, AND SHE'LL TELL YOU IT'S JOHNNY DEPP LOL

33. Bluegrass or rap?
BLUEGRASS

34. If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be?
WELL MY WIFE IS FAMOUES IN MY EYES, SO I GUESS I ALREADY DO

35. Skim, 1%, 2%, or whole?
WHOLE

36. What food do you find disgusting?
VENISON

37. Windows or Macintosh?
YES

38. Did you ever play, "I'll show you mine, if you show me yours"?
YES

39. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
YES

40. Have you ever sung in front of the mirror?
YES

Currently listening : Desert Rose/Brand New Day By Sting Release date: 25 April, 2000

SORRY, BEEN WORKING ON A FEW THINGS

Current mood: thoughtful
Yup, that's me. I'm working on getting some things going which is taking up some more time than I thought it would. So through the rest of July, my blogging will be sporadic. Hopefully starting in August, I should have my train back on track.

But, I had some time at work to think, so I'm sharing those thoughts.

THOUGHT 1:

You know we all spend so much time asking for equality. It doesn't matter what kind of equality we want, because it will never happen. It can not ever happen. This is a basic truth. To be equal we would all have to sacrifice individuality, and I for one will never EVER give that up. There will always be people who think they are better than us. Just like there are people who think we are better than them. It's a sad but very true fact.

THOUGHT 2:

No politician has the thoughts of the people in mind. If they did, they wouldn't take money for doing this type of work. They wouldn't hide behind committees, groups or laws. At one point we could look to our leaders to lead us. But there are too many hands in these proverbial cookie jars, while they sit and deny that it's their hands, even though, they have cookie crumbs all over themselves. We as a people have grown to comfortable letting these self serving bastards dictate how we should live our lives and how we thnk our thoughts. It's time that as a people, we accept the responsibility that WE have created this monster, and as a people we have to change this. We are killing ourselves behind our elected officials, as they tell us how, when, what, who, and where, while at the same time we've stopped asking why.

THOUGHT 3:

Why are so many people so interested in "reality TV?" I don't get it. Does anyone else besides me remember "pre-reality TV?" When people actually spent time, money, and thought on creating compelling television. Also, why is it that the only channels that are making great TV is pay channels? I mean The Soprano's, Dexter, Dead Like Me, Sex in the City, Queer as Folk, Six Feet Under and the Tudors just to name a few are very good shows. Don't get me wrong, I may not personally enjoy all of these shows, but given a choice, I would rather watch any and all of these instead of shows like American Idol, Survivor, the Bachelor, My Super Sweet 16 or the Real World.

THOUGHT 4:

Why on god's beautiful blue earth, are we so focused on trying to save the planet through concerts and movies? The planet was here before any of us were, and it will outlast all us puny humans. We have concerts and movies that encourage us all to "think green", but how many people drove or flew to see or perform in a concert that wasted electricity, gas and water? How many people were drove or were driven to make these enviromental films? How much time was wasted by these people in watching/performing on these "projects"? I mean wouldn't it be better to go out and plant trees or pick up litter instead of sitting on our collective asses watching a movie/going to a concert that's telling us what we should be doing?

Just some things I have been thinking about today.

Yeah, that's what happens when I have a few minutes of time to kill. Thanks...talk to you soon.

Currently listening : Between Raising Hell and Amazing Grace By Big & Rich Release date: 05 June, 2007

ARRRRGH!!!!

I CAN'T THINK OF

ANYTHING TO WRITE

well that and I wanted an

excuse to use this image.

Talk to you all in a bit.

4TH OF JULY

Independence now:

and Independence forever.

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY

DAMN!!

Current mood: rushed

WOW...ok I woke up very very late today...talk to you all in 13 hours or so.

Ecuador Manta,Anathallo,DB Bryant,Pat McCurdy,Cowboy Troy,Big and Rich

Current mood: happy

OK...sorry about not posting yesterday...but yesterday was a our Summerfest day. We went to see Big and Rich, and ...

IT WAS AWESOME!!!!! Well except for a few a**holes (who will be pictured here when Summerfest is over). We also saw a couple of other bands which were really really good.

There were these guys who played "street level" (which mean they didn't play on one of the main stages, and sometimes you find the coolest music there) called Ecuador Manta (again pictures will be here after Summerfest is over) which had you groovin, without you even realizing it. They were the only group that we saw that had the audience dancing, and some of them even went and started dancing in front of the crowd. Even the little guys and gals were getting into it. Season looked at me, with that 'do you want to?' look. I looked back with that "ARE YOU FRIKKEN CRAZY!!!' look, and she laughed at me. A truly cool S-fest moment.

Next was Anathallo. Who I did not know had a Myspace page but they do (Anathallo on Myspace). They did play at one of the main stagees. The U.S. Cellular Connection Stage with Leinenkugel's and FM 102/1 stage to be precise. AMAZING!!! The musicianship was stellar. One of the very cool things was the "musical chair" moments, when they kept going changing instruments and mics. Very very fluid transitions. We were disappointed that we didn't find any of their cd's for sale. If you get a chance check them out. You won't be dissapointed. Breathing originality, Anathallo mixes horns, unique percussion, and heartfelt lyrics into songs that could practicaly be considered epic. That actually says it best.

Next at the Briggs & Stratton Big Backyard Featuring The Rock 'N Roll Hall Of Fame With Miller High Life stage (where we finished out the evening) was A really cool band that does a good job melding rock, country and blues called D.B. Bryant and you can find them at Myspace. Sadly we only caught the last 20 minutes or so because we were getting some food and taking potty breaks. But what we did hear was very good.

Pat McCurdy is a Summerfest staple. His simple set (him and a few guitars) along with a few prerecorded music (for his "Rockin Dance Parties") is all he needs to make it fun and memorable. I have seen Pat on 5 different occasions and every show has been more fun than the prvious show. But this time he played short set because The Big and Rich show was being filmed for CMT, so they needed some time for the "tv spots." Which is too bad because Pat plays an excellent and very entertaining show. You can find Pat here (his website) and here (his Myspace page)

Lastly, there were the headliners of the evening. Muzik Mafia was in the house. The show started with Cowboy Troy (Muzik Mafia Member Since 2001). Now if you want to get a show started and a crowd rowdy, all you need is a Hick-Hop master to get the job done. After a short set, the Big and Rich, (Muzik Mafia Founding Members, 2000) came out to an amazing roar of the crowd. They played a very solid set including old hits and new songs which are garuanteed to be hits. They were as entertaining as TV allowed them to be (John Rich made a comment about being as wild as they can be while taping for TV). So I would defineatly go see them again in an "uncensored" forum. Some of my personal highlights would be the very sincere request to "love Everybody" by Big Kenny which they than followed up with Holy Water (which happens to be my favorite song). And John Rich stating that the song 8th of November was probably the most important song they have written and probably would ever write. Which they played and honestly, this song has so much more impact when you hear them perform it live. The last song they played was of course their first big hit, Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy, with a special visit from Muzik Mafia Member since 2004, Two Foot Fred who very emphatically announced that we should "LOVE EVERYBODY!!!!!!!" And who am I to argue with that?

After that Season and I had to leave so I really hope we didn't miss anything, but even if we did, what we did catch was truly AWESOME!! So That was Sunday.

Were going to try to hit Summerfest on the 4th. But we will most assuredley be there on the 8th. I'm am so NOT, NO WAY IN HELL missing Alpha Rev. Ok See you all soon.