HAVE YOU EVER

Have you ever wondered what has brought you to the place where you are? I've been thinking about this for the last couple of weeks, and I realized that everything has brought me to this place, and I'm grateful for everything. All the good things and bad, that have happened thus far have just made me the man, or jerk depending on who you ask, that I am now. It seems to be kind of weird thanking all the people who I should be hating but without them I'd be looking at the world from the bottom of a bottle slowly counting away the days till I cease to exist, and become nothing but a smear on the tapestry of life. I have a feeling that some of them want that anyway, but I can't blame them either. I can't fault them for their feelings, nor can they fault me for mine. I think that the more they tried to kill the person I am, the more they steered me into becoming the man I'm supposed to be. So it seems that hatred for the betrayers of my life, have turned to thanks and adulation. I sit here a stronger, saner and very honestly a better man for it. But that doesn't mean I've forgiven them for the acts of betrayals, just accepted them. You can't expect the rattlesnake not to strike, just because it isn't shaking it's rattle. Just like if you piss of the dog, you can't expect the dog to forget, and question why it just bit you. So with that said, this goes to all the people who tried to make me less, because whether you wanted it or not, you made me more, and for that, thank you.