A Moment Of Silence redux

Now those of you that actually know me, know that I'm not a pro-military person. But I do have a respect for those that do choose this way of life. Yes, it is a way of life. It takes someone of a special courage, an unbelievable strength of character and a love for their family, home and friends, to join the military. It takes someone who is afraid but won't and didn't let that stand in his or her way. It takes ultimate sacrifice, for those that laid it all on the line, because whether they lived or died, they're the ones who pay the price of freedom. I may never know all of you, but to you all I do say "thank you"! To the families and friends of these courageous individuals, my prayers are with you. To those who never came home... a moment of silence.

A Moment Of Silence redux

A Moment Of Silence


Now those of you that actually know me, know that I'm not a pro-military person. But I do have a respect for those that do choose this way of life. Yes, it is a way of life. It takes someone of a special courage, an unbelievable strength of character and a love for their family, home and friends, to join the military. It takes someone who is afraid but won't and didn't let that stand in his or her way. It takes ultimate sacrifice, for those that laid it all on the line, because whether they lived or died, they're the ones who pay the price of freedom. I may never know all of you, but to you all I do say "thank you"! To the families and friends of these courageous individuals, my prayers are with you. To those who never came home... a moment of silence.

I'M NOT AN ANGRY PERSON....DAMN IT

Greetings and salutations my brothers and sisters. I was sitting outside today...well i guess more accurately yesterday, and this thought came to mind. I'm not angry young man anymore. I was sitting there pen in hand, I was trying to work on some poems, smoking a cigarette, putting on paper the words that are flowing from my head. They don't mean much and probablly never will, but they are my idiosynchratic toughts. Well, as I looked around, I saw that I'm surrounded by drama queens, freaks, geeks, fools, stupid people, naive people, jerks, mean people, nice people and ignorant people. And I wouldn't have it anyother way. They didn't piss me off, with their insane (and amazingly immature views on life, even though half of these people weren't even old enough to drive). They made me laugh and smile. I even joined in on some of it, if only to correct a statement or to have it clarified. I didn't go off on them like I would have before. As a matter of fact, I was quite intrigued by the loads of BS that was being spewed, because it made me think of the ways I used to act. It also brought me to realize that even though I'm surrounded by drama queens, freaks, geeks, fools, stupid people, naive people, jerks, mean people, nice people and ignorant people, I started to see the true beauties of the world. No I'm not talking about the girl in the hot pants that just walked by, but I am talking about truth, innocense, loyalty and intelligence. They made me see that we're not that different at all, yet we'll never be equals. There is a hierarchy, and the older I get the less I care about it. There's no such thing as a girl who is out of your league. There is no such thing as he's too good for you. There's no such thing as you have to settle. Those are some of the biggest lies ever created. Take a chance, you might get lucky and than again you might not. But what have you got to lose. How much does the word no really hurt? It's not like you've....wait a second....I mean... its not like we've never used or heard it, and by god's blue earth we are still alive. Sure it might bring the ego down a peg, but it's you, the indiviidual, who ultimately has to pick yourself up. So all you drama queens, freaks, geeks, fools, stupid people, naive people, jerks, mean people, nice people and ignorant people, take this little bit of advice. We're not the same but I'm more like you than you know, and yes, when you grow up, you will be just like us. I'm not an angry person anymore.....damn it....I guess that means I going to have to change the name of this blog, oh well, might as well do it....lol

So yes today I like it here.....and I hate it here, will be having a lil face lift.

I remain

Jose aka J2

I LOVE WATCHING (another of http://luluslines.blog-city.com/ triggers)

I love watching...

wow, thats a tough one. I have so many things I love watching. The snow fall in front of a street light. I love watching children play. I love watching my chinchilla take dust baths. I love watching a smile grow. Sunsets are on this list. As is the full moon, in the middle of the night, and seeing the moon in the morning sky. I love watching old couples who still act "frisky" in public. The way a horse gallops, so majestic and powerful. I love seeing the words flow on to a page when you have an idea, yet no control over what they say. I love watching faces on christmas, when people open gifts, and get what they want. I love watching cartoons on saturday mornings. Like I said its hard to decide what I love watching because in general I love watching everything...

but I do miss watching one thing. I really miss watching someone sleep next to me, but that's something for a later date.

So I guess today... I hate it here...less and less everyday

WOW...WHAT A DAY

wow, what a day i had. i had a 5 hour sex marathon, first time since late march. you know its actually possible to forget how much fun it is. hmmm... i wonder will it be another 2-3 months before it happens again? well anyways, how are you my few and nonexisting readers? i'm actually in quite a weird mood. I started a new blog http://saintnsyynner.blogspot.com/ one that i actually enjoy doing almost as much as this one. it's just my crazy thoughts put into poetic forms. done 2 of em so far, one is an old one i wrote almost a year ago, and the other is a new one. oh if anybody knows html...i would really like some help making http://saintnsyynner.blogspot.com/ a very cool looking thing. so yes my miniscule fans, a call for help has just been made. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP me with html, PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASE!!! well thats it for now, i'll be back in a few hours...


PS That blog no longer exists, but all th entries can be found on here

A DAY OLDER or NOTHINGS CHANGED

Yes, the day came and went. Another year and one day older, and nothing much has changed. I'm still full of piss and vinegar. I still can't tolerate stupidity and ignorance. I still procrastinate. I still smoke. I'm still not fit and healthy. I still watch mind-numbing TV. I'm still not rich. I'm still single. I still return movies late. But...


On the other hand, I'm happy. That’s a new one for me. I have a job that I actually like, again. My real friends have stood by me and shown themselves to be true. My not so real friends reared their ugly heads and showed me their true faces. My family helped me get on my feet. I rediscovered my passion for reading, along with my dislike of newspapers. I've learned how to budget, or at least not waste all my money all at once.


Wow...so I guess a lot has changed...LOL...who knew? So I guess today I like it here. Why not? It could be worse.


Jose


P.s. oh no!!!!! Am I losing my edge??? Am I turning into a woos???? Ah who the hell am I kidding, I'm just feeling a day older and none the wiser :)

A Moment Of Silence

Now those of you that actually know me, know that I'm not a pro-military person. But I do have a respect for those that do choose this way of life. Yes, it is a way of life. It takes someone of a special courage, an unbelievable strength of character and a love for their family, home and friends, to join the military. It takes someone who is afraid but won't and didn't let that stand in his or her way. It takes ultimate sacrifice, for those that laid it all on the line, because whether they lived or died, they're the ones who pay the price of freedom. I may never know all of you, but to you all I do say "thank you"! To the families and friends of these courageous individuals, my prayers are with you. To those who never came home... a moment of silence.

THIS IS THE "I HOPE LULU's FEELING BETTER ENTRY

I went to get my trigger phrase today and found out Lulu wasn't feeling very well, so in a way of sending her good feelings I will be using her previous trigger's and for I think the first time be writing positive things so here’s the first

As I sit at the computer, I look out of the window I see... a door. Because I'm at work, and my office is almost all windows and in front of me is a resident’s door. But ironically I also see my reflection, and I realize I have to shave. I also got this weird group of hairs sticking up. I'm also listening to the radio and jammin'. LOL earlier I was LIKE TOTALLY HEAD BANGIN!!!!!! to Metallica's "Trapped Under Ice".

Ok now the next one

The hazy lazy days of summer bring...sunburns from lying at the beach for too long. It also brings the left arm is darker drivers tan. It also brings out all us wearing them really dark sunglasses so we can ooggle and ahhh at the opposite sex and they can't notice which way our eyes are looking. It also brings Summerfest!!!!!!!!!! The absolute joy of drinking an ice-cold beer on a sunny hot day. It also brings all the big budget movies. Running thru sprinklers and playing in the fire hydrant spray. Hell it seems that "The hazy lazy days of summer brings..." brings out the absolute love of life. The big events and the little joys all come out.

Ok now the next one

No matter how down I may feel at times.... nope...can't do this one...well at least not today...remember I'm sending out positive feelings :)

Ok I’m going to look for another one because the next one was a what annoys you trigger.... LOL
There is a reason.... for this particular entry. It's a way to say thank you for doing something that even though it may not seem like a big thing it still nice to know that it is appreciated. Well I guess I'm done for now so if you can't tell, TODAY I LIKE IT HERE, see I told you it was getting better. See I do have good days :). But don't worry the rants and raves will be here next time :P.
I still remain

Jose aka J2

I COULDN'T THINK OF ANYTHING SO I CHEATED BY GOING TO http://luluslines.blog-city.com/ and dictionary.com FOR AN IDEA

I love the smell of...

rain just before it actually starts to rain. Everything smells so clean and pure. Especially if you think this world is a screwed up place full of liars, cheats and a pungent evil to horrid to name. I know I am one of those people. I like knowing that every once in a while; it's not so bad. That for just a moment, the world is as pure as child’s laughter, as beautiful as a baby's smile and as strong as the awe and wonder that used to feed us before we "grew" up. I know I'm being melodramatic, but that’s my right. I have earned every cynical, pessimistic, sarcastic, sardonic, scoffing, scornful, skeptical, sneering, suspicious, unbelieving and wry comment that I do make. I didn't get this way overnight, nosiree bob; it took a long time to get there. It took all the people who tried to control, boss, bully, command, dominate, handle, manipulate, regulate, rule over and subjugate me. Wow, don't I sound like some crazy freedom activist...well I guess in a way I am. But like other beings, when given freedom, what is it that they do? Do we fear, run away, accommodate, admit, adopt, comprehend, comprise, contain, cover, deal with, encompass, grab, incorporate, involve, receive, seize, subsume, take in, take on, take up, welcome or is there abhorrence, agitation, angst, anxiety, apprehensiveness, aversion, cold feet, cold sweat, concern, consternation, cowardice, despair, discomposure, dismay, disquietude, distress, doubt, dread, faintheartedness, foreboding, fright, horror, jitters, misgiving, nightmares, panic, phobia, resentment, qualm, reverence, revulsion, scare, suspicion, terror, timidity, trembling, tremor, trepidation, unease, uneasiness, and worry. I don't have any answers. Just observations and lately they have been a wee-bit on the negative side. Or is that on the realistic side?? I'm still trying to figure that out, but as "Rowdy" Roddy Piper was famous for saying..."Just when you think you have all the answers, I change the questions"...how true that is. Now don't get me wrong I do have a lot of things that make me happy, just right now they aren't at the top of my list. Right now all I got is a bit of spite, animosity, antipathy, bad blood, bitchiness, contempt, enmity, gall, grudge, harsh feeling, hate, hatred, ill will, malevolence, malice, maliciousness, malignity, peeve, rancor, resentment, venom and a touch of vindictiveness. Not that this is good or bad, it just is. We all have it inside of us, angel or devil and saint or sinner. We have the rapture, the agony, the love, the hate, the sorrow, the joy, the laughter, the tears, the despair and the hope. For me, I just let it out here. Sometimes it's just a momentary feeling and at other times it’s a longing to relinquish and purge these thoughts and emotions. That's what this is today, a purging. So today I hate it here...but it's getting better.





Jose

EMPIRE RECORDS IS THE BEST TEEN MOVIE SINCE THE BREAKFAST CLUB

As I just finished watching Empire Records, I've come to realize that it is the Breakfast Club of the nineties!!!! It's damn true. You have the cool and the geeks wanting to be a part of something yet never realizing they all ready are. You have the romantic relationships and untold loves. You have the yearning to be responsible adults yet not necessarily knowing what that is. You have cool music and you have the obligatory drug scenes. You have the miraculous change of teens to mature teens. You have the underwear is showing moments. But mostly you have the not so cool place be ultra cool. So if you have seen one and not the other...do something about it...watch, enjoy and for now piss off because that's all I really have to say. any questions?? Well since today I hate it here, save them till next time.

Until than I remain the king of the dorks and emperor of geeks

Jose