The new easy to type home of all the crap I write.

http://coacearchive.blogspot.com/

I WON'T BE UPDATING THIS BLOG SITE ANYMORE, IF YOU STILL WANT TO READ MY WASTE OF SPACE YOU WILL HAVE TO GO HERE

http://coacearchive.blogspot.com/

I'M CHANGING OVER EVERYTHING TO THAT SITE. AND THAT SITE WILL BE UPDATED DAILY.

SO ADJUST YOUR BOOKMARKS

JOSE

5/31/2007

http://www.myspace.com/victimeffect




For anyone in UTAH!!

I needed a bit of a break as you can tell. I'll be back tomorrow with some new revalations, ponders, views, editorials and whatever else I feel like writing.

Jose

5/30/2007

http://www.myspace.com/gshelms

A Bulletin from OG! The Original Gregory!






OG! The Original Gregory!



Date:
May 29, 2007 12:29 PM

Subject:
Help out my friend!

Body:
Fellow OMEGA alumni Cham Pain is in the running to be on the next season of "I Love New York." So everyone please go to ttp://www.ilovenewyork2.com And vote for him. He will go nuts on that show, and I promise you that it will be well worth the entertainment. Here's how ya do it:


1) Go to the website http://ilovenewyork2.com/people/Champain
Sign in and vote. It's free!


If that doesn't work.
1) Go to the website http://www.ilovenewyork2.com
2) Type in Champain in the "SEARCH" Box and his profile should come up and vote that way.

Thanks everyone!


5/29/2007

30 SECOND BUNNY THEATRE




All your favorite movies...in 30 seconds...and recreated with bunnies.

PINK FIVE




A great set of fan films that take place in the original Star Wars universe. Umm do I have to keep telling you to click on the link??

5/28/2007

A Moment Of Silence

Now those of you that actually know me, know that I'm not a pro-military person. But I do have a respect for those that do choose this way of life. Yes, it is a way of life. It takes someone of a special courage, an unbelievable strength of character and a love for their family, home and friends, to join the military. It takes someone who is afraid but won't and didn't let that stand in his or her way. It takes ultimate sacrifice, for those that laid it all on the line, because whether they lived or died, they're the ones who pay the price of freedom. I may never know all of you, but to you all I do say "thank you"! To the families and friends of these courageous individuals, my prayers are with you. To those who never came home... a moment of silence.

5/27/2007

www.myspace.com/theonlymatthardy

Hello everyone. I'm Matt Hardy and I wanna continue to make people aware of my page at www.myspace.com/theonlymatthardy. I consistently update my page, and I want people to visit and enjoy my new updates, blogs, and pics. I would love for all of you who enjoy my MySpace page to copy and paste this bulletin and then send it out as a bulletin to all your friends. Spread the good word! This borderlines on MySpace whoring, lol, but that's what myspace is all about. Thanks!

5/26/2007

"Life is Beautiful" music video released!

Check out the music video for "Life is Beautiful" by Sixx:A.M. The video is the 1st track from the soundtrack for The Heroin Diaries. Heroin Diaries is the upcoming book by Nikki Sixx, the cofounder of the legendary rock band, Mötley Crüe. The Heroin Diaries offers an unflinching and utterly gripping look at Sixx's descent into drug addiction with a soundtrack, featuring James Michael and DJ Ashba, to match.






(ok for those that don't know---just click on the image and it will take you to the video)

5/25/2007

OK I GIVE UP

ANOTHER QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Any society that would give up a little liberty to gain a little security will deserve neither and lose both.”
Benjamin Franklin



OK, I give up. I am so tired of reading things about how bad it is for Mexicans to be in the U.S.A.. I give up trying to debate that issue. Fuck em all. Send the bastards back to Mexico. If they don't leave, just shoot them on sight. Who cares anyway. I say let's be like the Nazi's. They had a whole lot of people they didn't want in their country, and they were legal, and they got them out of their country...or made them a part of their soil. So let's do the same. If you're an illegal alien, you have 10 days to get the hell out of this country. If you don't you are and will be considered a terrorist and executed immediately. Any who try to help these illegal immigrants will be considered an enemy of the state and will be executed immediately. There will be no compassion. There will be no leniency. There will be no debate. These are criminals. They have invaded the U.S.A., and like all invaders, they must be made an example of. This is our country that we rightfully stole from the natives who lived here beforehand, and just like them we will shove a fork in them...because it's done. If you are an illegal, you may not take anything back with you, because it was gained illegally. If your children were born here, sorry not our problem. You came here or stayed here illegally, so the sins of the fathers are passed down. You committed a crime against this nation, and your children will not be recognized as citizens of the U.S.A. You will take them back with you. Only citizens with the proper documentation can stay. So if great grand mother lost or misplaced those documents, the entire lineage will be asked to leave and after 10 days, if the are still in the U.S.A. they will be executed on sight. Simple enough?? Good!

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go to my living room and cry.

A RESPONSE TO AN E-MAIL

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Whatever you say, say it with conviction”
Samuel Langhorne ClemenS (better known as Mark Twain)
November 30, 1835 — April 21, 1910
an American humorist, satirist, writer, and lecturer


OK, I got this e-mail today which really cracked me up...so in true Jose fashion I'm sharing the e-mail (while keeping the ID a secret...I'm not that BRUTAL).

HOW CAN YOU WRITE SOMETHING LIKE THIS?? IT'S ALL OPINIONS WITHOUT ANY CONCRETE FACTS!! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT SO THAT PROVES THAT YOU ARE WRONG!! I'M NEVER READING YOUR STUPID OPINIONS OR YOUR BLOGS AGAIN!!

Umm OK. Let's break this down just so everyone understands clearly, OK?

Let's start with this...

HOW CAN YOU WRITE SOMETHING LIKE THIS??

I can because this is my blog. I stress the "MY" part strongly. On my lil wast o' space I can pretty much do whatever I feel like doing. That's why it exists, and that's why I keep writing on it. It's MY blog, and I shall do and say whatever I feel like while running MY blog.

IT'S ALL OPINIONS WITHOUT ANY CONCRETE FACTS!!

Yes I know...and when I do use facts, it is usually to illustrate how "right" my opinions are. Think of this page as an editorial, where I say what I mean, because I feel very strongly about it.

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT SO THAT PROVES THAT YOU ARE WRONG!!

OK, you got me on this one. I am oft to say that "I am not a wise man, nor am I a smart man but..." Which is very true. But what I am is observant. I look at the world, and express what it makes me feel. Sometimes it's good and sometimes it's bad. Sure I'm not out there curing cancer, but hopefully someone will come by, read one of my useless tirades, and go "Hmm I never thought of it that way." Well at least that's my hope.

I'M NEVER READING YOUR STUPID OPINIONS OR YOUR BLOGS AGAIN!!

Umm...OK sorry to see you leave.

The sad part is I usually do try to keep this pretty up beat. I mean if you want to get technical, I usually use this avenue to empty/share the brain, heart and soul of good feelings and bad. It's a cleansing act for me. The fact that some of you keep coming back to read what I have to say floors me. I'm also humbled and thankful for that. So I humbly thank you for joining me on this cyber walk.

Oh yeah I almost forgot...if you read this leave a little note/comment/whatever. I'm actually very curious about who read this. Umm...I guess that's all.

5/24/2007

QUACK QUACK QUACK...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
“The 'not-giving-a-fuck' meter is as far into the red-zone as ever before.”
Lars Ulrich
December 26, 1963 - Present
A tennis prodigy in his youth, drummer and co-founder of Metallica


It's been a while. I haven't let myself just "go off" in quite a long time. So here we go...

First if gays and lesbians want to get married, for chrissakes let them. Who the hell are they hurting if they do? I think it's funny that a nation started for some basic freedoms would turn into a nation where you get those freedoms only if you are just like everyone else. If you are a man and a woman it's OK to get married...ANYWHERE! But god forbid if you're not, well screw you than. Who cares. Not the majority. Who cares, they are only freaks and abominations, right? Who cares that they have found something most people will never find. A partner who cares for them, who wants to be with them and stays with them, no matter what. Because in these times when it's easier to hate than to love, these few people find a way to persevere. Most can't get married, but they stay together despite it all. I'm sorry but if they have that kind of devotion when most factions are against them, than who the hell are we to say, "No. You can't do this because WE say it's wrong." I'm done with this topic for now, but I will get back to it...soon.

Second, since when have immigrants become the root of all evil? I don't care if you're legal or illegal. If you're here and aren't shitting in your, or my, yard than you should be left alone. If you are shitting in you, or my, yard, then by all means GET THE FUCK OUT! Sure once you start getting established, go through the bullshit, dance the dance the bureaucracy and the government want you to dance. Do it all, get legal. But for crying out loud, don't you dare set up demonstrations that say you have every right to be here like everyone else, you don't. Just because you're here, it doesn't mean you are wanted here. The only thing you got going for you is that at least you have a reason (albeit a stupid one) to be hated. I mean how many neo-nazi, KKK, or aryan fundamentalist wants everyone not like them out of "Their America.?" How many blacks want "whitey" out of "Their America." How many people no matter what color wants "those faggots" out of "Their America." It's stupid. The two biggest reason that people want illegal immigrants out of "Their America", is jobs and homeland security. OK, now of all the Latinos you have seen in America, who are in fact illegal, how many of them have high paying jobs? Are they not simply taking ANY job offered to them? It doesn't matter what job it is. They will do it. They don't care as long as it's work. How many Americans are on welfare, who WON'T? How many Americans on welfare don't even look for jobs? How many Americans on welfare are content to stay home and GET FUCKING PAID FOR IT?!?! OK, now about security issues, you want to see where the problems in security are? Hire the latinos. These are people who want a chance to make a better life who are willing, and do, anything for that chance. Hire these individuals and send them back home, so they can show you where you're defenses are weakest. Send them to Canada and tell them they have to get back"illegally" and fix the damn holes. Send them overseas and tell them to get back. I garauntee that they will find just about every breach in security you can think of, and some you can't. After this then make them citizens, because by this point, they have earned the right. I'm done with this topic for now, but I will get back to it...soon.

Breast feeding is NOT A FRIKKEN ISSUE. It's what they are meant to be used for. They are meant to supply nutrition and food to babies. To anyone who has a problem with this and claiming it is a sexual act, I have this to say to you. GROW THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID MORON!!! So it's some thing you don't want to see, so than turn away. I'm done with this topic for now, but I will get back to it...soon.

These are examples of issues that people all over the nation are bitching about. Why are you not bitching about the fact that billions of jobs are being taken out of the country we all love so much, but companies love the dollar more, so they will do anything to make a dollar. Even if it means taking it out of our hands and giving it to some other country. Sure it a whole lot less, but you forget they still want what few pennies you have too. They take away jobs, eliminate incomes, raise the prices of their goods, and expect the same people who have very little to buy their products, and than have the frikken nerve to complain that their sales have dropped.

How about the oil companies? I mean apparently there is some gas shortage. It's so bad that they have to increase the prices of fuel. It's so bad that they make record breaking profits. It's so bad that the people who don't have jobs because they were eliminated and sent to another country, have to pay for gas that is apparently in such short supply that they have to raise the prices.

We live in a country where we would rather complain about the leadership, than all go out and do something about it. If everyone voted, we would have a voice that could not be ignored. But let's stay home and vote on American Idol instead. Let's let the decision that affects us for 4 years in someone else's hand. People complain that there are no "good" politicians, well get off your asses, vote, and put those "Good" politicians in office. If you scream enough, you will be heard. But instead we just make jokes about how dumb our leader is. How he's the reason our families and friends are still in a war zone. A war zone that was supposed to "help" with the whole oil issue ... I mean get a tyrant out of office ... I mean get the evil bastard who killed so many innocent people in our country. On Our Soil. Who because of this action is now killing more citizens of OUR country, except now it on their soil. We got the tyrant, but at what cost? And after that, the fuel prices are a moot point.

I know I haven't even touched on unemployment, AIDS, healthcare, adoptions, religon, and a whole slew of other topics, but I will.

Everything I have mentioned is a topic that needs addressing. ALL OF THEM ARE! But we need to start at home. Fix the home, which will fix society, which will fix the government, which will fix America. We need to start the repairs soon. We need to start now! We need to be united in all of this. We don't have a choice. If we want to survive these are things we have to do. If we want to stay the U.S. of A, we need to focus on the "U."

5/23/2007

TRAILER FOR RAMBO 4




ENJOY

CHEATING...again

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Fatigue is the best pillow."


Yuppers it was a long night...so I give you this...

Two blondes living in Oklahoma were sitting on a bench talking, and one blonde says to the other, "Which do you think is farther away...Florida or the moon?"
The other blonde turns and says "Helloooooooooo, can you see Florida?????"

A blonde pushes her BMW into a gas station. She tells the mechanic it died. After he works on it for a few minutes, it is idling smoothly. She says, "What's the story?"
He replies, "Just crap in the carburetor."
She asks, "How often do I have to do that?"

A police officer stops a blonde for speeding and asks her very nicely if he could see her license. She replied in a huff, "I wish you guys would get your act together. Just yesterday you take away my license and then today you expect me to show it to you!"

There's this blonde out for a walk. She comes to a river and sees another blonde on the opposite bank. "Yoo-hoo!" she shouts, "How can I get to the other side?"
The second blonde looks up the river then down the river and shouts back, "You ARE on the other side."

A gorgeous young red head goes into the doctor's office and said that her body hurt wherever she touched it.
"Impossible!" says the doctor. "Show me."
The red head took her finger, pushed on her left shoulder and screamed, then she pushed her elbow and screamed even more. She pushed her knee and screamed; likewise she pushed her ankle and screamed. Everywhere she touched made her scream.
The doctor said, "You're not really a red head, are you?"
"Well, no" she said, "I'm actually a blonde."
"I thought so," the doctor said. "Your finger is broken."

A highway patrolman pulled alongside a speeding car on the freeway. Glancing at the car, he was astounded to see that the blonde behind the wheel was knitting! Realizing that she was oblivious to his flashing lights and siren, the trooper cranked down his window, turned on his bullhorn and yelled,"PULL OVER!"
"NO!" the blonde yelled back, "IT'S A SCARF!"

A Russian, an American, and a Blonde were talking one day.
The Russian said, "We were the first in space!"
The American said, "We were the first on the moon!"
The Blonde said, "So what? We're going to be the first on the sun!"
The Russian and the American looked at each other and shook their heads.
"You can't land on the sun, you idiot! You'll burn up!" said the Russian.
To which the Blonde replied, "We're not stupid, you know. We're going at night!"

A blonde was playing Trivial Pursuit one night. It was her turn. She rolled the dice and she landed on Science & Nature. Her question was,"If you are in a vacuum and someone calls your name, can you hear it?"
She thought for a time and then asked, "Is it on or off?"

A girl was visiting her blond friend, who had acquired two new dogs, and asked her what their names were. The blonde responded by saying that one was named Rolex and one was named Timex. Her friend said, "Whoever heard of someone naming dogs like that?"
"HELLLOOOOOOO......," answered the blonde. "They're watch dogs!"

5/22/2007

A PHOTO ENTRY

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"The camera can photograph thought."
Sir Derek Jules Gaspard Ulric Niven van den Bogaerde better known as Dirk Bogarde
March 28, 1921 – May 8, 1999
an actor and author

Just going through some of my pics, and wanted to share some...when I get the time I'll be setting up a flickr page...but for now, you get this...



This is what happens when I'm a wee bit bored.




I never get tired of "looking up."




I just thought this would make a really cool image.




I just thought the irony of this particular image was worth capturing.

OK, that's all for today, see you again tomorrow.

5/21/2007

ONE CAT...sorta

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Cats are rather delicate creatures and they are subject to a good many different ailments, but I have never heard of one who suffered from insomnia."
November 25, 1893 – May 22, 1970
an American writer, critic, and naturalist


I was going through some of my pic files and I found some that made me go wow...
here is a before and after series...
Before about a 1 1/2 years ago



and a 1 1/2 years later

that's just skin folds now...
I wish I had his determination.

5/20/2007

DIDN'T I DO A GOOD JOB?

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Every job is a self-portrait of the person who does it Autograph your work with excellence."
Unknown


Well this is what I have done so far...







I'm happy with it.

5/19/2007

I AM KING...if only my kingdom wasn't cleaning and unpacking from the move back in August

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
“When making a fire people like to join you, when cleaning the ashes you are often alone”
African Proverb


It seems like I come up with these great decisions and ideas at the worst possible time. For example, I want to record the Heroes Marathon that starts in 5 hours. So I had to find some recording devices. I did.

But than I thought, "SHIT, you know it's about time I finally unpack all the boxes, I mean we have been here since August, and I really can't put it off much longer."

Which is a very good idea, I mean Season is sleeping, I have a couple of beers, and I have a pretty good plan as to how I plan on getting to all this.

Than...reality slaps me in the face like a pissed off nun back in my school days. This gonna be a lot of work...and Season is ASLEEP!!! I'm on my own and I have to finish what I started before she wakes up, because my friends, that is good politics. So that's when I decided that I should come on here...let you know that I'll be cheating on my next few posts, because I got to be a domestic goddess...err I mean GOD (heh heh) and get this crap done.

So here we go with some filler material...

YOU GREW UP IN RURAL WISCONSIN IF.............
You know how to polka , but never tried it sober....

You know what knee-high by the Fourth of July means.

You know it is traditional for the bride and groom to go bar hopping between the
reception and wedding dance.

You know the difference between "Green" and "Red" farm machinery, and would fight with your friends on the playground over which was better!

You buy Christmas presents at Fleet Farm.

You spent more on beer & liquor than you did on food at your wedding.

You hear someone use the word "oof-dah" and you don't break into uncontrollable laughter.

You or someone yo u know was a "Dairy Princess" at the county fair.

You know that "combine" is a noun.

You let your older siblings talk you into putting your tongue on a steel post in the middle of winter.

You think Lutheran and Catholic are THE major religions.

You know that "creek" rhymes with "pick".

Football schedules, hunting season and harvest are all taken into consideration before wedding dates are set.

A Friday night date is getting a six-pack and taking your girlfriend shining for deer.

Saturday you go to your local bowling alley.

There was at least one kid in your class who had to help milk cows in the morning... phew!

You have driven your car on the lake.

You can make sense of "upnort" and "batree".

Every wedding dance you have ever been to has the hokey pokey and the chicken dance.

Your definition of a small town is one that only has one bar.

The local gas station sells live bait.

At least twice a year some part of your home doubles as a meat processing plant.

You think that the start of deer season is a national holiday.

You actually understand these jokes.

Butt Measurements
A man and his wife were working in their garden one day and the man looks over at his wife and says: "Your butt is getting really big, I mean really big. I bet your butt is bigger than the barbecue."


With that he proceeded to get a measuring tape and measure the grill and then went over to where his wife was working and measured his wife's bottom.

"Yes, I was right; your butt is two inches wider than the barbecue!!

The woman chose to ignore her husbands comments

Later that night in bed, the husband is feeling a little frisky. He makes some advances towards his wife who completely brushes him off.

"What's wrong?" he asks.

She answers: "Do you really think I'm going to fire up this big-ass grill for one little weenie?

Texas State Trooper A young woman was pulled over in Austin, Texas for speeding. As the Texas State Trooper walked to her car window and flipped open his ticket book, she said, "I bet you are going to sell me a ticket to the Texas State Police Ball."

The officer replied, "Texas State Troopers don't have balls."

There was a moment of silence when she smiled and he realized what he'd just said. He then closed his book, got back into his cruiser and left. She was laughing too hard to start her car.

5/18/2007

IRONY COMES IN HANDY SOMETIMES

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Writing is easy: All you do is sit staring at a blank sheet of paper until drops of blood form on your forehead."
Gene Fowler
March 8 1890-July 2 1960
American journalist, author and dramatist


I have been sitting here for 3 days in a row (no, not 72 hours in a row, but you know what I mean) with no idea what to write. I have "back ups" so it really isn't that big of a deal, except to me. So because of my dilemma, I decided to look up quotes on writers block. It made sense to me. Then all of a sudden while reading these quotes it occurred to me, why not write on writers block itself? I figure I tell you guys just about everything else that goes on, why not this?

I truly and deeply hate having writer's block (even though some of you may not think I'm much of a writer, but hey that's what opinions are for). I hate it almost as much as I hate stupidity (my own included). I hate it almost as much as I hate liver (which is a lot, by the way). I can't stand the fact that I can talk about anything for hours (and sometimes make my thoughts coherent), but I can't spend a few minutes writing down some of those same ideas. It's a personality flaw, I know, and I'm working on it.

Three days now (well technically 2 1/2 but you get my point) I sat here. I read my on-line obligations. I played my favorite games, but when it came to putting up my "daily" post, well that was just kicking me in the ass (an ample yet very luscious ass I might add, Who knew?). I mean yesterday I spent almost 5 hours just redoing my "archive site" (yes I am so conceited and self assured, that people would want to read and re-read all of my bulls**t, that I collected it all in one place, what can I say...I can hope).

On a side note, I will be going back and "re-working them AKA fixing grammar and spelling errors. I mean when you're drunk or pissed off, it's pretty easy to screw up even the most basic of sentences. Which, by the way will be handled by my lovely and talented wife (who will be quite surprised to find out what she has been nominated to do...especially because she'll be finding out when she reads this).

So before I started writing I got the ol' media player kicking out some soothing and fun songs to make the writing go easier. I actually recommend to any and all prospective writers that music to write to is important, especially if it doesn't have lyrics (I'm not telling any professional writers what to do because well they apparently know what they are doing). If just the right song comes on, it's so easy to get into a rhythm. OK back to the topic...

So now that I have overcome this latest obstacle, I'm much happier than I was when I started. Which is a good thing. I like being happy. It's a pretty good feeling. I like it. It makes me feel and warm and fuzzy inside.

OH THAT'S COOL! I do my writing on my archive site, simply because it's the easiest to deal with when it comes to spelling, proof reading and uploading images (just one man's humble opinion) and I realized that it automatically saves as a "draft" every minute. Which means, I no longer lose everything next time one of my wife's little mongrels decides that an outlet with a plug in it, is a "batting toy."

Well what else is there...oh yeah. One of the members of The Estrogen Clan of the Northwoods was born today...many many many years ago. So to this member I wish you a happy birthday. No that's not right...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's better. OK...I'll see you all little bit later.

5/17/2007

A TOUCH OF WRITERS BLOCK SO I FALL BACK ON A PREVIOUSLY WRITTEN AND SAVED FOR A RAINY DAY ENTRY

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"What others say of me matters little; what I myself say and do matters much.”
Elbert Green Hubbard
June 19, 1856 – May 7, 1915
an American writer, publisher, artist, and philosopher


Well I guess the title today says it all....so here you go...


1. What is your full name?
Jose

2. When is your Birthday?
6/02

3. what cd is in your car?
Oh christ...in the cd player is a burned disc of different country songs, Motley Crue-Generation Swine, Nitro-O.F.R., Toby Keith-Greatest hits vol 2, South Park Christmas Album, Bakers Pink, Pearl Jam-Ten, The Zeroes-4/3/2/1/the Zeroes, Mother Love Bone, Joe Satriani-Flying in a Blue Dream, Fiona Apple-Tidal, Star Wars Episode 1 soundtrack, WWE the music vol 2 through 5, Styx-Greatest Hits, Trick Pony, Garth Brooks-Live, Phil Vassar-Greatest Hits, Anthrax-State of Euphoria, Puya and The Rugrats Movie Soundtrack... I think thats everything in my car

4. favorite flavor of ice cream?
Chocolate

5. your faorite holiday is?
Christmas followed by my birthday...which if it isn't a holiday, it damn well should be..LOL

6. Can you cook?
Yes

7. What was your dream growing up?
A grown up...still not there...I think

8. What talent do you wish you had?
Play Bass Guitar

9. Favorite place?
The Zoo

10. Favorite vegetable?
all of them

11. What was the last book you read?
About 5 hours ago I finished Clive Barker's "Sacrament"

12. What zodiac sign are u ?
Gemini

13. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
Yes and sorta (I've let the ear hole close up)

14. Worst Habit?
Smoking

15. What is your favorite sport?
Spectator

16. Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
Actually I'm a pretty nice guy till you piss me off, so what category does that fall under?

17. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
1. Ask you if you have gas/feeling gassy
2. Make some really bad joke about "why go through all this trouble to alone with me?
3. After that I got's no clue

18. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
Too personal sorry

19. Tell me one weird fact about you:
I can sleep through the phone ringing or alarm going off, but I wake up if any door in our apt gets opened or closed.

20. Do have any pets?
My Wife has 3 cats

21. Do u know how to do the macerana?
Yes...sadly I do

22. What time is it where u are now?
2:32 AM

23. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
They are some damn sexxxxxay!!

24. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
LOL...I'd be ripped

25. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
Depends on the crime

26. What color eyes do you have?
Brown

27. Ever been arrested?
Yup

28. What is your favorite drink?
I'll take it you mean booze-wise...well than it would have to be beer...only because liquor makes me stupid and mean

29. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
Buy a flat screen TV...than return it because my wife told me to, than she would make me pay off bills, and save the rest

30. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
Not a big bubble gum fan anymore

31. What 's your favorite place to hang at?
The Zoo

32. Do you believe in ghosts?
Ghosts no, Spirits yes

33. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Have sex

34. Do you swear a lot?
Yes, but only at the wrong moment

35. Biggest pet peeve?
STUPIDITY (yes this includes my own)

36. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
fuckedup (ok well if you type it that way it's one word)

37. Do you believe in God?
Sure Do

38.What is your zip code?
Waukesha

39. What city do you live in?
Waukesha

40. What is your favorite TV show?
Wrestling/Dexter/Dresden Files/Bulls**t...its a tie

5/16/2007

THREE, THREE, THREE TIMES THE FUN

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"It is a difficult thing to like anybody else's ideas of being funny”
Gertrude Stein
February 3, 1874 – July 27, 1946 an American writer and is considered to have acted as a catalyst in the development of modern art and literature.

Hey everybody, I've got some web comics, blogs and emails to catch up on so here's a few giggles sent your way....ENJOY

A man and his ever-nagging wife went on vacation to Jerusalem. While they were there, the wife passed away.

The undertaker told the husband, "You can have her shipped home for $5,000, or you can bury her here, in the Holy Land, for $150."

The man thought about it and told him he would just have her shipped home.

The undertaker asked, "Why would you spend $5,000 to ship your wife home, when it would be wonderful to be buried here and you would spend only $150?"

The man replied, "Long ago a man died here, was buried here, and three days later he rose from the dead. I just can't take that chance."


Grandma's Oranges Lulu was a prostitute, but she didn't want her grandma to know. One day, the police raided the brothel and took all the girls outside and made them line up. Suddenly, Lulu's grandma came by.

Grandma asked, "Why are you standing in line here, dear?"

Not willing to let her grandma know the truth, Lulu told her that the police were passing out free oranges and she was just lining up for some.

"Why, that's awfully nice of them. I think I'll get some for myself," Grandma said, and she proceeded to the back of the line.

A policeman was going down the line asking for information from all the prostitutes. When he got to grandma, he was bewildered and exclaimed, "Wow, still going at it at your age? How do you do it old girl?"

Grandma replied, "Oh, it's easy, dear. I just take my dentures out, rip the skin back and suck 'em' dry."

The policeman fainted.

Little girl asked her Mom, "Mom, may I take the dog for a walk around the block?"
Mom replies, "No, because she is in heat."

"What's that mean?" asked the child.

"Go ask your father. I think he's in the garage."

The little girl goes to the garage and says, "Dad, may I take Belle for a walk around the block? I asked Mom, but she said the dog was in heat, and to come to you."

Dad said, "Bring Belle over here." He took a rag, soaked it with gasoline, and scrubbed the dog's backside with it to disguise the scent, and said "OK, you can go now, but keep Belle on the leash and only go one time round the block."

The little girl left and returned a few minutes later with no dog on the leash.

Surprised, Dad asked, "Where's Belle?"

The little girl said, "She ran out of gas about halfway down the block, so another dog is pushing her home."

5/15/2007

Grunt, Me MAn, ME MIghTY HUntER, GRUNT GRUNT!!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Courage is the art of being the only one who knows you're scared to death.”
Robert Earl Wilson (name changed from Earl Lawrence Wilson)
October 2, 1934 – April 23, 2005
a starting pitcher in Major League Baseball




OK this sadly is a true story. It happened last Friday which was 4 days ago.
Season and I decided that we needed some last minute goodies from the grocery store. We talked it over and instead of going to the Super Wal-Mart (which if you don't know is open 24 hours but is about 20 minutes or so away), we decided to go to the Pick-N-Save (which is a grocery store and only about 5-6 minutes away but only open till midnight) and since it was 11:30 P.M. we knew we could make it in time. So about half way there the following conversation was started.

Season (s1) "Jose, try to find a place to park quickly, OK."

Jose (j2) "Why?"

s1 "It's nothing just make sure you stop as soon as you can."

j2 "What's wrong? Are you sick? Are you OK?"

s1 "It's nothing really...uhh...umm..well OK, but don't freak out."

j2 "GOD Season what's wrong just tell me!!"

--now this next part takes place as I'm pulling into the parking lot of the Pick-N-Save--

s1 " I have a wood tick crawling on me."

--she says this very casually, like it happens all the time--

j2 "WHAT!!!!"

--as I narrowly miss a curb--

s1 "I have a wood tick crawling on me and it must be hungry because you normally don't feel them crawling around."

--she says that like I needed a play by play. I DID NOT by the way.--

j2 "OH GOD!!"

--I aim my Rodeo at the first available spot, narrowly missing 2 cars a few shopping carts and parked in 5 spots. I did not know that was possible until this moment--

j2 "GET IT OFF!! GET IT OFF!!"

--and yes in one of my more stellar moments as a card carrying member of the male species, I was out of the car before her and I was the one yelling, screaming, and jumping up and down. She on the other hand was Fonzie cool. She was so cool with all this that she could have refrozen the polar ice caps...now thas cool--

s1 "It's gone. Are you OK?"

--Bless her heart she was going to let this little breakdown go--

j2 "Yeah I'm fine, sorry, I kind of freaked out."

s1 "No shit, i thought I was going to have to change your pants, and start calling you 'my Mexican jumping bean'. By the way...don't move."

--I stood so still not even my heart was beating...after about 30 seconds--

s1 "Just kidding, I just wanted to see what you would do."

--at this moment I just about broke into tears, but I didn't. Butt at that precise moment, I knew she would never let that breakdown go.--

But since then, I've had the itchy crawly feeling all the time. The kind that just makes you freak out all the time.

What a mighty man/hunter/warrior I am. Grunt grunt...whine whine.

5/14/2007

A MOTHERS DAY FOLLOWUP...which means this ones funny...I hope

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"My mother tried to kill me when I was a baby. She denied it. She said she thought the plastic bag would keep me fresh."
Robert Allen Monkhouse
June 1, 1928–December 29, 2003
an English entertainer


Q. What is the most common pregnancy craving?
A. For men to be the ones who get pregnant.

Q. My husband and I are very attractive. I'm sure our baby will be beautiful enough for commercials. Whom should I contact about this?
A. Your therapist.

Q. I'm two months pregnant now. When will my baby move?
A. With any luck, right after he finishes college.

Q. How will I know if my vomiting is morning sickness or the flu?
A. If it's the flu, you'll get better.

Q. My brother tells me that since my husband has a big nose, and genes for big noses are dominant, my baby will have a big nose as well. Is this true?
A. The odds are greater that your brother will have a fat lip.

Q. Since I became pregnant, My breasts, rear end, and even my feet have grown. Is there anything that gets smaller during pregnancy?
A. Yes, your bladder.

Q. The more pregnant I get, the more often strangers smile at me. Why?
A. Because you're fatter then they are.

Q. Will I love my dog less when the baby is born?
A. No, but your husband might get on your nerves.

Q. What's the difference between a nine-months pregnant woman and a Playboy centerfold?
A. Nothing, if the pregnant woman's husband knows what's good for him.

Q. My childbirth instructor says it's not pain I'll feel during labor, but pressure. Is she right?
A. Yes, in the same way that a tornado might be called an air current.

Q. When is the best time to get an epidural?
A. Right after you find out your pregnant.

Q. I'm modest. Once I'm in the hospital to deliver, who will see me in that delicate position?
A. Authorized personnel only---doctors, nurses, orderlies, photographers, florists, cleaning crews, journalists, etc.

Q. Does labor cause hemorrhoids?
A. Labor causes anything you want to blame it for.

Q. Where is the best place to store breast milk?
A. In your breasts.

Q. Is there a safe alternative to breast pumps?
A. Yes, baby lips.

Q. How does one sanitize nipples?
A. Bathe daily and wear a clean bra. It beats boiling them in a saucepan.

Q. What are the terrible twos?
A. Your breasts after baby stops nursing cold turkey.

Q. What is the grasp reflex?
A. The reaction of new father's when he sees new mother's breasts.

Q. Can a mother get pregnant while nursing?
A. Yes, but it's much easier if she removes the baby from her breast and puts him to sleep first.

Q. What happens to disposable diapers after they're thrown away?
A. They are stored in a silo in the Midwest, in the event of global chemical warfare.

Q. What causes baby blues?
A. Tanned, hard-bodied bimbos.

Q. What is colic?
A. A reminder for new parents to use birth control.

JUST WAITING...for sleep to come my way

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"A dying man needs to die, as a sleepy man needs to sleep, and there comes a time when it is wrong, as well as useless, to resist. "

Stewart Johonnot Oliver Alsop
May 17, 1914 – May 26, 1974
An American newspaper columnist and political analyst.







Since it's Sunday...and my work schedule returns to the norm tomorrow, I sit here, bored outta my mind till I can go to bed at roughly my normal time. Not much else to say this evening other than I'll talk to you all later...like after I watch Monday Night Raw. Thanks.

5/13/2007

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.

Rajneesh


“A mother is a mother still, The holiest thing alive"

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

5/12/2007

HELPLESS

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"What if I just hide under my bed, all scared and helpless? Or what if I just become pathetic?"
a fictional character from "Buffy, The Vampire Slayer" TV series.


help find Madeline!

a lot of users have been emailing me about Madeleine McCann, a 3 year old child abducted in Portugal last week. hopefully my space can help ! let's publicize her photo and get the word out. please add this profile and put it in your top 8 until she's found!http://www.myspace.com/findmadeline

Today the angels are weeping...
and I'm feeling


I am so out of touch with the world. I really am. I forget how ugly and hurtful it can be. How so many beasts and demons are out there just to hurt people. I am just this overweight loser who wastes time on the net, and I know that my impact on the world at large amounts to a drop of piss in the Atlantic ocean. But as bad as that feeling is, it's the helplessness I feel, when I read things like this, and the fact that there is nothing I can do, that just utterly destroys me . I mean up until today I didn't even know anything about this little girl. Now I have this information in my heart. It saddens me. Now I know with, all what 13 or so actual readers of this blog, that my chances of being of any help at all is right up there with solving the problem of bigotry...
but what if?
I still feel helpless. I'm not doing anything more than putting this on a couple of blogs. I can't help the parents. I can't help Madeline. Hell there are times I can't even help myself. But what else can I do? So I'm putting this up on my blogs. The 13 or so readers will read this blog. Some might even click on the link. Some won't. I know this. But for now, it's the best I can do. And at least it is something.

5/11/2007

FEELING LAZY TODAY

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired. "
Mortimer Caplan



So I am going to bed.

5/10/2007

THE HEROIN DIARIES

The Heroin Diaries is the upcoming book by Nikki Sixx. The Heroin Diaries offers an unflinching and utterly gripping look at Sixx’s descent into drug addiction with a soundtrack, featuring James Michael and DJ Ashba, to match


RANDOM THOUGHTS and ANSWERS TO SEASON

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"I want to see eight thousand words. Printable words. I still remember that essay you wrote when the Beast got elected. I do not want to see the word "fuck" typed eight thousand times again."


Mitchell Royce
a fictional character from the TRANSMETROPOLITAN graphic novels


OK, so today my wife asked me what was up with my last few blog entries. She thought they were clever, but she asked me when was I going to "write" something again. To which my reply was

J2-"EXCUUUSE me, but you're standing in my cool."

S1-"Whaaat?"

J2-"My awesome aura of ample cool. I radiate cool at a rate of 1,000 Charlie Watts. I am a veritable coolness fan...a flair conditioner, if you will."

S1-::SMACK!!!::"Don't ever quote "Get Fuzzy!" at me again."

That, sadly, was a true event. But as to her question (which I gladly answered once my head stopped spinning), is simply this...

I'm working on different way to express my current thoughts. If you read of my postings, some are concise and focused, while on the other hand, most are not. So I was just trying different techniques to get the same meaning across. I didn't understand at first why she asked. It's not the first time I've added visuals to my blogs, but it is the first time that I used them to make them flow.

Speaking of flow, after going through my music files I came to a realization. All my music flows. I have 3 basic music folders. One is driving songs, another is thinking songs, and finally there is the music that moves me. The driving and thinking folders are just random songs that I like, but the 3 folder is the weird one.

It's this folder that I'm going to spend a few moments on. The music in this folder ranges from Bon Jovi, Ella fitzgerald, John Denver, Nirvana, Leonard Cohen, Madonna, Marvin Hamlisch, Garth Brooks, and Pearl Jam to name a few. It all music that simply moves me, like standing in a lake while the water just rocks you. Now they aren't all "ballads" but they all have this groove that clicks with my internal harmonics. An audio journey that matches the melody in my soul and in my thoughts. Just wanted to share.

Hey guess what? I'm playing around with myspace page layouts. Well at least I think that's kinda cool.

On myspace I get these bulletin thingies, and I read maybe 1/3 of them, but I got one that says

"Statistically speaking, unless you are a total hermit, social retard, or ugly as a bag of spoiled ass... There's at least 1 person on your myspace that wants to date you or sleep with you. So..... lets play "friends w/ benefits...

The rules are simple...
if you want to date the person who posted this, send them a message to their inbox saying "I'm yours".
If you just want to sleep with them and stay friends, send them a message that says "I'd hit it".

SCARED? LOL

THE TWIST IS YOU HAVE TO RE POST THIS, EVEN IF YOU'RE TAKEN
& see who replies. There is at least 1 person on your myspace that wants to date you, and maybe more that want to sleep with you.

SO... re-post as "Friends with Benefits", as it doesn't matter if your married, in a relationship,single, gay or straight!

You opened it so you HAVE to re post it!
A test of your bravery
Go on do it!"

Well the ironic part is, well other than being "Ugly as a spoiled bag of ass", there is no one I want more than the woman who married me. Maybe I'm just too old fashioned or maybe I'm just too old to play that game. Or maybe I'm just not brave (as the bulletin says). But I'm pretty happy where I've ended up in my life. Sure there are things I want to change and I will change them (like my weight--but not because some stupid person says it's better for me, but because I need to for my Halloween costume), but the person who shares her life with me...That's about as perfect as it gets.

Can you BELIEVE it's almost summer...which means SUMMERFEST!

Umm, I guess that's all for tonight.

Later

5/09/2007

NOTHING

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"If you have integrity, nothing else matters. If you don't have integrity, nothing else matters.” Alan K. Simpson
Well this morning, I got nothin'
so have a good day.

5/08/2007

SHORT AND SWEET

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"Dawn" When men of reason go to bed.

Ambrose Gwinnett Bierce
June 24, 1842 – 1914
American editorialist, journalist, short-story writer and satirist


I watched Monday Night RAW...a little let down that the 2 matches I really wanted to see were cut very short, and I realized I am very






so now I'm



Good night moon, good night sun...

5/07/2007

IT'S MONDAY...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"Just go out there and do what you’ve got to do.”

Martina Navratilova
October 18, 1956 - PRESENT
A former World No. 1 woman tennis player


Yes sir...on the day I would rather be doing this



I get woken by monday which as usual is a



to be treated like this all day long



I am so looking forward to today...so I can act like a



all day long.
God I hate Mondays.

5/06/2007

GOOD DAY

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

“I look back on my life like a good day's work; it was done and I am satisfied with it”

Anna Mary Robertson Moses–better known as Grandma Moses
September 7, 1860–December 13, 1961
renowned American folk artist






So, after that rude awakening this turned into a pretty good day well except that Season made me...yeah do that






but all is fair in love and laundry. Well there's also the fact that I actually don't mind doing it and



that's Season's take. So other than that...pretty good day.

WAKE UP CALL

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Style. Beauty. Grace. That's what matters. If cats looked like frogs we'd realize what nasty, cruel little bastards they are."
Terry Pratchett, Lords and Ladies



There's nothing like starting a day knowing the simple fact that the only reason you're awake is because one of the cats has used your head as a springboard.



YUP!! It's gonna be one of those days.

5/05/2007

SATURDAY...

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"We can’t always have what we want."




It's Saturday, kind of nice, season has a migraine, and I'm here



Doing this...wow, I need to find some friends.

5 of Mayo

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"Being a bastard works."

Spider Jerusalem



oh yeah happy cinquo de mayo....





have a corona on me

5/04/2007

Help Alpha Rev Open for Fallout Boy!

Current mood: enthralled


Ok...If you visit My Spaceyou know that I love the music that Alpha Rev does, so now I'm asking you all a favor. They have a chance at national exposure by opening for Fallout Boy...so I'm asking and pleading you all to get behind these guys...follow their instructions and vote for them. If you do...let me know, and I'll pass it along...or if you want to let them know yourself, by all means tell them at http://www.myspace.com/alpharev but please vote, these guys really deserve this.
Thanks,
Jose
P.S. This was cut and pasted from a bulletin they sent out so that it would make it easier to understand. PLEASE PLEASE VOTE FOR THESE GUYS!!! Thanks


Hey there,
Thanks to everybody who came out last night to Speakeasy. It's an amazing venue and we enjoyed playing there a great deal.
As some of you know, we're entered into a drawing to open for Fallout Boy in San Antonio this summer. You may not know however, how big an opportunity this is for an up and coming band like ours. It's typically very difficult for a indie artist to score an opening spot on the bill with a major, much less on an amphitheatre tour like Fallout Boy's.
That being said, please vote for us...it takes about 2 minutes at the most. Just follow these steps.
1. Go to
http://www.mylocalbands.com/promos/fobcivic/vote.asp
2. Click on "Select the Area"
3. Choose "Tx - San Antonio"
4. Under Alpha Rev, choose "Vote for Alpha Rev"
5. Fill out the info and submit.
That's it! You're done!
With your help we can win this!
Take care,Alpha Rev

J.A.S.D.

Yup that kind of Night

5/03/2007

TOP 17 FATAL THINGS TO SAY TO YOUR PREGNANT WIFE

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
I would say that the chances slim and none—and slim just rode out of town
Anonomys


17. "I finished the Oreo's."

16. "Not to imply anything, but I don't think the kid weighs 40pounds."

15. "Y'know, looking at her, you'd never guess that Pamela Leehad a baby!"

14. "I sure hope your thighs aren't gonna stay that flabby forever."

13. "Well, couldn't they induce labor? The 25th is the SuperBowl."

12. "Darned if you ain't about five pounds away from a surprisevisit from that Richard Simmons
fella."

11. "Fred at the office passed a stone the size of a pea. Boy,that's gotta hurt."

10. "Whoa! For a minute there, I thought I woke up next toWillard Scott!"

9. "I'm jealous! Why can't men experience the joy of childbirth?"

8. "Are your ankles supposed to look like that?"

7. "Get your *own* ice cream."

6. "Geez, you're awfully puffy looking today."

5. "Got milk?"

4. "Maybe we should name the baby after my secretary, Bambi."

3. "Man! That rose tattoo on your hip is the size of Madagascar!"

2. "Retaining water? Yeah, like the Hoover Dam retains water."

And the Number 1 Fatal Thing to Say to Your Pregnant Wife...

1. "You don't have the guts to pull the trigger........."

30 THINGS STRESSED WOMEN MAY SAY AT WORK

Current mood: bouncy



QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"It's one thing to shoot yourself in the foot. It's another thing to reload. And it's quite another thing to go get another gun."

Mark Rasch
Chief security counsel, primary spokesperson for customer education and security strategies for Solutionary, worked with Fortune 500 clients, law enforcement, and various intelligence communities and a former federal prosecutor for high-tech crimes


1. Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you.

2. You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing.

3. Well, this day was a total waste of make-up.

4. Well, aren't we a damn ray of sunshine?

5. Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after.

6. Do I look like a people person?

7. This isn't an office. It's hell with fluorescent lighting.

8. I started out with nothing and I still have most of it left.

9. Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble wrap is cheap. You choose.

10. Why don't you try practicing random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of self-control?

11. I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years.

12. Sarcasm is just one more service I offer.

13. Do they ever shut up on your planet?

14. I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable.

15. Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realize you haven't gone to sleep yet!

16. Back off!! You're standing in my aura.

17. Don't worry. I forgot your name too.

18. I work 45 hours a week to be this poor.

19. Not all men are annoying. Some are dead.

20. Wait...I'm trying to imagine you with a personality.

21. Chaos, panic and disorder .. my work here is done.

22. Ambivalent? Well, yes and no.

23. You look like shit. Is that the style now?

24. Earth is full. Go home.

25. Aw, did I step on your poor little itty bitty ego?

26. I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert.

27. A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth.

28. You are depriving some village of an idiot.

29. If assholes could fly, this place would be an airport.

30. Look in my eyes . Do you see one ounce of gives-a-shit?

5/02/2007

UPDATES

Myspace

WOW!!

Current mood: embarrassed

Just a little thing that really isn't worth mentioning to anyone but me...but You know my waste of space has been viewed over 400 times....WHY??? UHHHhh I mean Very COOL. Damnit that means I really have to try harder now...man I hate work.


Yahoo360

Current mood: embarrassed

Just a little thing that really isn't worth mentioning to anyone but me...but You know my waste of space has been viewed over 300 times....WHY??? UHHHhh I mean Very COOL. Damnit that means I really have to try harder now...man I hate work.

TIME HAS A WAY OF BITING YOU IN THE ASS...and proving the fact you should wear clean underwear

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"LIFE IS STRANGE AND THEN YOU LIVE."
Nikki Sixx December 11, 1958 - present (although according to their biography "The Dirt" he did die on December 23, 1987, but was revived by paramedics)
Musician, Songwriter, Author, Photographer


OK, this is not the blog entry I had planned for today. I actually had a whole other thing planned, but I don't feel like writing it just yet. But will probably rear it's pretty ugly head by Friday/Saturday. Now what exactly does this purveyor of time wasting, procrastinating, and all around tom-foolery have in store for all (I say that like I have a HUGE readership when in truth there's like 2 maybe 3 people who read this, and one of them is my wife) of my spectators to the eventual train wreck that is my existence. A personal observation into my past, insight to present, and speculations to my future.

What exactly does that mean?

Well, let me lay down the ground work. I was not the most prolific high school attendee. I did graduate, although a year late because of my need to rebel against everything and the fact that I was really bored, from high school.

Much to the surprise of everybody who had absolutely no faith in me, but that's another story.

So Yes, I am a HS graduate, although, all my friends graduated when they were supposed to, and I didn't. You see I spent so much time at Hardee's and Jennifer's (and if you went to Waukesha South High School, you would know what I mean by this) that at the time I thought I was being cool. But what I hadn't realized, that by not graduating with my class, I would probably never see those people who had enriched my high school years and blessed me with something special and rare called friendship. Something I occasionally think about. I have spent most of my life right here in Waukesha arriving, raising hell and staying. I don't regret it. It's made me the man I am today, but I do wonder what happened to my classmates. I wonder what they're doing now, how much they have changed, if they remember me or even if they want to.

So today, I thought I'd check out the HS stuff on MySpace, and another realization hit me square in the jaw. I don't remember anybody from HS anymore. Oh sure there are a few people whose faces light a candle of thought, or a name that screams hello, but as a whole...not really. I wouldn't know what to say to them even if I did. I don't know, I'm just in this weird crazy funk tonight. It's like nostalgia is a nice feeling, but when I look back, it seems like I wasted a whole lot of time.

I honestly don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I'm just thinking (and typing) out loud trying to make some kind of sense of it all. I have been doing that a lot over the last few weeks. Trying to make sense out of the world and my place in it. I've been trying to figure out why so many things happen, and what I can do about it, or if I should. I guess it finally hit an apex tonight while I was here sitting on puter, smoking a cigarette, drinking a diet coke while listening to my wife sleep. I don't have any answers to my pondering, but I guess this is my life. Sharing incoherent thoughts with complete strangers, partaking in a vice, while my wife sleeps in the other room (whom I will be joining once I spell check and post). Well than I am one very lucky man. I guess I don't need much to make me happy. And it doesn't take much to make me sad or angry. I just need to be thankful for every breath I get, so that I am able to be happy, sad, angry or question the past, future, and the present.

Umm...I guess thanks for coming along tonight. I hope you guys (and gals) don't mind the occasional self musings once in a while. You know, it does help to think out loud once in a while. Until later...LATER!