ALL THINGS MUST COME TO AN END

Well, it's been a while since I was here last. The day that I wrote about Rocky, my life changed...again. You see if you go back and reread my blog from the beginning, you can see that part of me was being suppressed choked and slowly dying. Well after contemplating of an "easy way out" and a week of alcohol numbing (which is what I do in response to a heavy dose of reality slapping me in the face) I came to a decision. I wanted out. I needed out. I needed space. I needed to be free of the shackles of complacency. Without going into to many details, I left WG, and moved in with my best friend. The same friend who I was denied because of jealousy. I guess looking back I can see why. You see when we met we connected. We got along great, having so much in common, from the love of movies to "porn mad libs". I used to look forward to talking to her through Yahoo messenger, until I found out WG was getting jealous because we talked. Than we had lunch together, back when I was still trying to find a job in "rivendale", and we sort of had this unspoken pact. We weren't going to talk anymore. We wouldn't hang out anymore. In short, we would avoid each other like the plague. And we did. It sucked. I was lonely without my friend. Well we did this for close to 6 months. The loneliness of knowing my friend was "here" and not being able to do anything about it just about killed me. Than when I reached my breaking point...this is at the end of the 5 day bender I was on, I asked her if I could move in with her. She said yes. I said "wow". So after a slight stumble I did move in with her. Than one day (this was this past Saturday) I asked her out on a date. We had dinner. We watched a movie. It was "Life as a House". We had some cocktails. We talked about our feelings toward each other. I asked if she was willing to chance our friendship at something more. She said yes. I said "wow". So than on Sunday, after work I stopped here and asked her out on what we would call our second official date. I asked if she wanted to go for a walk to the park. She said yes. I said "wow". So we went, and we swung on the swings, we sat along the lake, and I acted like I was going to throw her in the lake. It was a very nice late afternoon. Well that's where I stand now. A new beginning with my best friend. I don't know what will happen. But than again who does? All I know is that for the first time in many months, I am truly excited about what tomorrow will bring. Just thought I'd let you all know what was going on in the now more complicated yet way more simple world of Jose.

Well see you all soon, and I'll let you all know what's going on in my little world.

Jose